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always keep the faith?

2009-11-06T09:55:00.000-08:00

should we still keep the faith?
should I still keep the faith?

much as i want to keep the faith, i find it really hard doing so.
i think i'll just wait and see whats gonna happen.
and most importanty, be prepared on what i'm gonna hear, or 'see'.

sometimes i just wish i knew what they are thinking and feeling right now.

gahh

what i've been doing couple of hours before

2009-10-09T12:51:00.000-07:00

just surfing, sharing yoochuning, allkpoping, seoulbeating, facebooking and...

one thing i've been doing every one hour is......

voting

hehe..so if u stumble upon my blog and felt like wanting to do me a small little favour,
please log on to www.mugr.jp/ranking.php and vote for dongbangshinki.

the site is in japanese and for those who can read and understand japanese,it will be easy for u. for those who dont, fret not, its quite easy actually. there will be 2 columns. the left one is to vote for アーテスト which means artist. DBSK is no. 26 (i still dont know how to type kanji using my keyboards) so yeah, on the left is no. 26 and on the right side is to vote for song. there are 2 dbsk songs but i like the 'stand by you' song which is no. 3. and no. 5 is also their song. once u have chosen no. 26 on the left, click the button below and proceed to no. 5 on the right side and click the button below as well.

frankly, i dont know what the vote is for or how winning the vote affects the boys but i always feel happy if dbsk wins something no matter how meaningless the win is.

and if u feel like doing me a slightly bigger favour, help me vote every one hour. hehe...

whatever it is, i'll be thankful.

happy birthday mama papa!!

2009-10-09T10:09:00.000-07:00

semoga panjang umur, sentiasa gembira, sihat selalu dan dirahmati allah. amiin...

germaine invited me to her birthday party next week and coincidently, we share the same birthday. yes,i'm turning 23, just thinking of it makes me sad. I'm getting old..grrr
anyway, i dont really go to party but i feel bad turning her down especially when she has ordered halal food. furthermore, the party has a theme and we have to be dressed like geeks!! how in the world do i dressed like that? luckily naz offered to lend me her super nerdy glasses. its weird to be wearing the glasses cos i know i'll be wearing contacts as well. so ironical.

i just realised that many people I know has their birthday in october. My mama, papa, naz, ulfa, faiz, kak jannah (i think so), ira, kinhans, khairu and edison chen!!! yes edison chen. I still like him although not as much as last time but i still freaking like him a lot la. who cares about his scandal?! and i just got to know my cuzzin shafiq which is the same age as my lil bro hanif which is 17 years old, likes edison as well. like as in looking up onto him in terms of his fashion and stuffs lah. i was quite shocked cos not many people i know likes edison and when shafiq saw my shocked expression he quickly said "i dont like him as much now cos he is a rapist" hahahaha. I laughed so hard. he would be in jail now if he's a rapist. but no doubt, edison is doing well with his business. Already having 2 shops, selling freaking expensive stuffs yet still doing so well and i guess still having girls around him. ahaha *gets bricked*

I miss dbsk, 2pm and super junior. i'm getting sick of girl groups now. they are like everywhere and they always make me feel inferior. any girls would. They got the talent, the looks and they have nice legs. I dunno why i'm so into legs nowadays. everywhere i go, in the mrt, on the streets and practically everywhere, whenever there are girls passing by, i will always look at their legs and comment to myself. no that my sexual preferences have changed, just that i so envy girls with nice legs. Although i dont show my legs, i still wanna have nice beautiful legs!!!!!

oh and one more thing, i like to look at people's feet. more of the toes i guess. and if i find somebody whose second toes are shorter than their first big fat toes, its like i found a treasure cos that is very rare. so far, i found 2-3 people with that kinda toes and 2 out of 3 are males. lucky guys for having nice toes.

oklah, this post is so random...my life is getting boring that i dont even have anything to write about.

2pm are becoming more cautious

2009-09-18T10:33:00.001-07:00

ok...so i actually added nickhun - a 2pm member, a totally cute dude with a smile that can make u go red - on facebook. its really his facebook and i also know taekyeon has a facebook. nickhun confirmed me as friend on the 13th this month and yesterday, i found out he deleted his facebook. I even went mad looking for his account and then i realised taekyeon also deleted his facebook account.

so yeah, they are becoming more cautious in case they'll become like jaebom. poor guys, cant even have their own facebook. whats even poorer is that, they cant even let other people know their thoughts freely, not even to close friends. you know how extreme netizens can be. becareful guys, you might be the next to get kicked out of south korea. so i guess, wise move in deleting your facebook account.

In case you make new one, can u add me pleaseeeeeeee.....

are you religious?

2009-09-16T11:02:00.000-07:00

"are you religious?"

do u always get that question?

i get that question occassionally but whenever i was asked that, in my mind, i was like...how am I supposed to answer that?

its not that I detest that kind of question but what do you mean by religious? isnt it pretty subjective? furthermore, is it up to me to decide if i am religious or not? of course i hope to be so although what i'm doing is the minimal as a muslim. but hey, my minimal could be the maximum for some. so yeah, why would people ask such question anyway? is it something to be judged upon? i dont even care if people say i'm liberal or whatsoever as long as i know i do all that is 'wajib'...

finally, i'm starting to blog again. its actually nice to blog, to 'pen' my thoughts and stuffs and through blogging i see myself changing, at least on the way i see things.

Anyway, Park Jaebom, ex leader and ex member of 2pm, a very popular idol group/boyband in south korea, was 'chased' out of korea because of the comments he made 4 years ago on his myspace. although the news have been quite some time but i still feel like talking about it cos i'm quite upset about whats happening. basically the comments were quite negative (although i frankly think its nothing at all). oh c'mon, isnt it ridiculous to be 'chased' out of one's country just because u say that particular country is gay? if a foreigner says that singapore is gay, i'll just laugh it off. not that cos i'm not patriotic or i have no national pride or whatsoever but that person just doesnt know singapore yet and furthermore, isnt everyone entilted to their own thoughts. oh yes, perhaps saying it out is wrong...

lets put aside the negativity of the comments. how about we consider the time factor? dont people change? what i said years ago, do take note, its irrelevant now. what i like years ago, i might dislike it now, vice versa so i really dont get it why those stupid netizens are making such a big issue on it. and the most ridiculous thing ever was hearing that they would commit suicide if the poor guy doesnt leave korea. humans can be quite scary at times.

i guess for whatever we say, especially online, we just have to take resposibility of it. perhaps i should go through all my old posts again and delete whichever is necessary. what a hassle...

RAMADHAAAANNNNN

2009-09-12T11:32:00.000-07:00

NO WAY...Eid is just next week?

its already less than 10 days before ramadhan ends. Needless to say...the night every mu'min is waiting for..'lailatul qadr'. I say mu'min instead of muslim because it seems like not every muslims are anxious for that particular special night. but a mu'min will always anticipate it no matter what. The thing is, nobody can judge if u're a mu'min or not, not even yourself but of course nobody can stop you if you wanna be one and strive to be one definitely. Its more like matters of the heart where only Allah knows. And, to reach to the stage of being a mu'min is never easy. Ok..hmm..what am i talking about?

Anyway, when u hear lailatul qadr, a normal practicing muslim would always hope for that special night. I know i'm beginning to sound a little bit contradicting but yeah, sometimes my thoughts just got messed up a lot. But hey...lailatul qadr may seemed easy when u hear it, but doing it, mashaallah, its really a test. I'm not sure for you but for me, it definitely is. Last 10 days seem to be the last 10 days of the biggest test ever. Coping in hoping for lailatul qadr plus eid preparations and of course temptations. And temptations are the most evil ones so far and to me, they mainly come from the media. Internet and the tv. sighhh....

I guess i'm just a normal muslim girl who's trying her best to resist all these temptations but it doesnt seem to work out that well for me. I am trying to makethe most out of this special month of ramadhan by reading the quran, sadakah, tarawih and etc apart from fasting. But at the same time, i still watch tv, read entertaintment news and listen to music. Its weird and i wonder if what i've done could have been worthless or gone to waste? its really sad if it is. Although i knew so, its really hard to resist it. If u read this and ask why i couldnt even resist it for one month? yeah, one month shut out all these temptations from your life and all i could answer is i couldnt not that i dont want to. Pathetic as i may sound, this is me, a weakling, and perhaps the only thing i could be proud of myself is that the amount i'm giving for these temptations are much lower that what it used to. Contradicting could be my middle name for now cos it seems like whatever i'm doing and saying can be quite contradicting.

so now, while i'm worried about not being able to make the best out of ramadhan, at the same time, i'm also worried about the dbsk boys lawsuit with SM and park jaebom leaving 2pm.

Oh Allah.....forgive me,

is it 1st of June 2009 today?

2009-06-01T08:20:00.000-07:00

big and big LOL.

the last time i blogged was september 19 2008, boy, that was like about 8 months ago. freaking 8months and I cant believe my blog is still there. i thought they would have removed it.

anybody misses me? i think one did (from the tagboard) but good enough I guess. I'm not that totally forgotten. but wait...that person does not missed me, its just my post :-( well, still better than nothing.

now alot of things have happened these 8 months and I dont even know where to start. hmm..
how about exams? urghh boring. exams period are always the worst period of the year. no point talking about it since it will only make me frustrated.

how about...new year? nothing new I guess, nothing special too. always making resolutions when i know I will not accomplished it. whats the point of making them anyway. I just lack the drive. this is bad.

eidul fitri? eidul adha? sigh..they just passed by so quickly. and in about 2 months plus, ramadhan's coming. something worth waiting for. My favourite month of the year....and after that..eid will just be the same as it will always be. Not that i loathe it or what, its still a happy victorious celebration to me after a month of fasting, just that.... argh..its just hard to explain.

hmm..what else? I thought alot of things have happened. well, many same things happened except for one....the dong bang boys!!!!

dong bang shin ki!!!!!!!! I heart them...and dont even ask to what extent. you'll never imagined it. lalalalalala.....

and not to mention the super juni---or!!! wonder girls,big bang, 2pm and the latest one...2NE1. awesomness....

and if there's somebody to blame for me not blogging, it has to be them! because of their music, their shows, basically their entertainment, it leaves me with no energy to blog cos all of it was spent on them...

ok not really....
just blame my laziness lah.
i'm just lazy.
lazy dian.

Ramadhan

2008-09-19T09:01:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum to all

I really hope those reading this would be in the pink of health and to muslims, may you all be in the best of health and iman.

Today marks the 2oth day of Ramadhan. And we have exactly like another 10 more days to go.
And these 10 days would be the most 10 wonderful days because one of the nights(of which we don't know when) would be the most anticipated night which is the 'Lailatul Qadar'. I'm sure most muslims know that Lailatul Qadar is a night better that a 1000 months of ibadah and it would be such a waste not to grab it especially when the opportunity comes only once a year and you never kknow if u ever get this kind of opportunity again next year, wallahua'lam. And I thought we just started fasting yesterday. Oh God, time really moves real fast.

Talking about fast (not as in fasting but as in fast moving)...it suddenly reminds me of F1. Woohoo...
And we're gonna have F1 night race in Singapore just next week!!!
this really excites me not because we might have a chance to catch the cute Lewis Hamilton,
ok well, that could be one of the reasons but I guess the thing that I'm so happy about would be our economy!!! its gonna be good, its gonna improve our currency (i really hope so) and this also means i might pay my fees slightly cheaper to UOL. I heard from my classmate that pounds has already dropped to 2.5
how cool is that? very cool and its gonna be even more cooler when its gonna drop again. I totally cant wait for that cause its about time i make payments to UOL.

I cant believe Manchester Utd actually lost to liverpool!! it actually took me some time to believe it. After that, I figured, it could be because C.ronaldo didnt play thats why they lost to liverpool. ah! that must be it. ok, this might sounds bimboish, but who cares... urghh

I really cant wait for 4th November. guess what?
I'm finally gonna meet russell peters live. get it? live!!! arghhh!!!!! I am going for is live show
*screams*
all this while i just watch his show online while laughing my ass off and he is one hell damn great stand up comedian. if you dont know him then u are kental. hahaha
im going with naz, and although we bought the cheapest tix (we are poor ok) we're actually pretty excited about it. its actually sad when i spent that kinda money for the tix especially when i can use it to buy my law textbook but who cares.I 'll just buy it next month when the govt gives us the growth dividend money. See, I kinda spend my money wisely. And this month, I guess i have no choice but to cut my cost of spending on food and shopping perhaps.

I so cant wait to go for russell peters' live show!!
somebody's gonna get hurt real bad
hahahaha

why women cry?

2008-08-24T03:29:00.000-07:00

i was surfing the net and came across this article.
while it might not be new to some people
(since i've received this article in a forwaded mail before)
at the same time, we tend to forget why women cry easily and for no reason.

here goes te article...

A little boy asked his mother, "Why are you crying?"
"Because I need to" she said.
"I don't understand," he said.
His mother just hugged him and said, "And you never will."

Later the little boy asked his father,
"Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?"
"All women cry for no reason," his dad answered carelessly.

The little boy, still wondering why women cry, finally asked the old wise shaikh (scholar). "He surely knows the answer", he thought.

"Ya Shaikh! Why do women cry so easily?"
The Shaikh answered:
"When Allah made the woman she had to be special. He made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet gentle enough to give comfort.

He gave an inner strength to endure both childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children.

He gave her a toughness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining.

He gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child hurts her badly.

He gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart.

He gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly.

And lastly, He gave her a tear. This is hers and only hers exclusively to use whenever she needs it. She needs no reason, no explanation, its hers.

You see my son, the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the beauty of her face, or the way she combs her hair. The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides."

article from www.zawaj.com
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after reading this, i actually felt bad. really bad.

i've made my mother cried countless time.
how i wish i never did.

how i wish i would just be the one who feel the hurt.
let mum has her way and follow her say

if only i could turn back time
the tears wouldnt flow
and the sin i wouldnt have commited

i cant talk to her now
i dont want to sin even more
or let her words hurt me
although she has the right to

too bad whats done couldnt be undone
i've sinned
i'm hurt
and i know she hurts even more.

o Allah, will u forgive me?
what i'm feeling is worser than a thousand stabs in my heart
to lessen my pain, i could only helplessly cry to myself

i couldnt face everyone and tell them what i've done
even more, i couldnt face you allah.
I'm so ashamed of myself

Dear mum,
i'm sorry for what i've done
i know what I did was all wrong
just telling you in case i'm gone
your embrace was the only thing i long.

from your sinned daughter.

Relationships...

2008-07-25T20:41:00.000-07:00

received this and thought would be nice to share it
enjoy...

There's a guy and there's a girl,
You see his style and you see her twirl?

What a great couple they make,
they sit with one another by the side of the lake,
If only they knew physical beauty is fake!
It lasts for a minute and then its gone!
off comes the blusher and there goes the 'style' of the don!

'Lets have a kiss and a cuddle cus i think you sexy babe',
but there watches Allah and looks at his slave,
Soon they become saddened and realise the beauty was only valued from face!

What they fell for had no real lasting pleasure or grace,
Then they split and their heart does wonder...
Why if Allah loves me has He split us asunder?

Are you kidding me wake up man!
Your asking Allah and from Quran YOU ran?
What type of question do you think your asking?
When you were hiding from REAL love everlasting!

Love is for Allah and for His Rasool,
If you want to find beauty then use this knowledge as your tool!
Find the one who in his heart is the name of Allah the One!

When it comes to the time for prayer, yep! he has gone!
She is trustworthy and close to Allah you know,
If when you have a beard she says 'i dont care for show!

'Women complain about men and men about women too,
And amidst all this you forget Allah is watching you!
Oh you who is the One who has made the 'mistakes' recent....
Look for the love of Allah if you want someone decent!

i have a blog? really?

2008-07-12T07:39:00.000-07:00

i havent blog for so long that i almost forgot that i have a blog.

when we havent met somebody for a long time,
the first thing we ask when we meet that somebody would be
"how are you?"
so to my small group of wonderful friends who sometimes on and off visit my blog,
to blog hoppers who happen to hop into my blog,
to my family members who take the initiative to check me out on my blog for whatever reason,
perhaps to my secret readers who read my blog(if i have any),
and to the other people unmentioned who read my blog but pretend that u dont,

how are y'all?
arent y'all glad to be alive?
you still get to witness all the wonderful things that are still happening, subhanAllah.
although of course not everything is wonderful. but thats life.
once this life is over for you, there wont be any chance for you to experience it anymore.
i am happy to be alive, alhamdulillah. although when i'm sick, i rather die.
astagfirullah. i shouldnt be saying all this. Its a test, remember dian, its a test.

anyways, i mean, anyhow, (hehe)
so many things have been happening.
so many in just a short time. i'm starting to believe that time has actually move slightly faster.
this doesnt sound really good cause it also means that i'm gonna get old really fast.
it feels like i just turned 21 yesterday and in few months time i'm gonna be 22.
it feels like i just finish my O's and now i'm already in my 2nd yr doing my degree.
it feels like i just hang out with kak fiza after school and now she's already pregnant with her first child.
it feels like i'm still at pulau redang being underwater with fishes swimming around me and corals beneath me.
it still feels like i'm at paman's car with paman beside me directing me ways and now he's gone forever. inalillah.

paman is my uncle who i thought has been insignificant in my life.
but now when he's gone, i think i kinda miss him.
although he's didnt play a big part in my life, he's still part of me, he's my family.
my deepest condolence to my aunt, my cousin. i hope they are coping well.

ok, siti is on tv, gotta watch!!

should i give up or should i just keep chasing pavements?

2008-06-17T10:18:00.000-07:00

i'm like having second thoughts on whether i should blog about this.
it wouldnt be a surprise anymore to naz and sakinah because they knew about it already.
while on the train, we had a lil discussions but i kept my ideas and opinions to myself.
i told naz and sakinah that i'm gonna save it for my blog because if not i wouldnt have anything to blog about.
then 'plonnnkkk'!!!! they suddenly could read my thoughts and said exactly what was on my mind.
gerammmm sekaliii......korang ni spoilll lah. lain kali buat tak tau ah.
hahaha.

anyhow (i've been substituting 'anyway' with 'anyhow' because apparently nam and kianwai said that 'anyhow' is actually the correct word to use and i assume they should be correct because nam is an arts and social science undergrad and kianwai is a walking dictionary)
ok and anyhow, back to my lil discussions with naz and sakinah, we were talking about giving up our seats on the train or bus to seomeone who needs it more than we do (eg: pregnant woman, disabled person, old people etc)

and I really have a problem with that.
its either i dont sit at all or dont give up my seat and be oblivious to the situation.
i'm always contemplating whether to give up or not.
not that i'm cruel or what lah. just that, if u see somebody who's pregnant then u give up your seat to her then it turns out she's not pregnant just that she has big fat belly then she would really feel so paisey and insulted right?

there was one time an old man board the train and stood in front of me. at that point of time all the seats were taken and nobody even cared to give up their seats to the poor old man. so i decided to be kind and give up my seat willingly and sincerely to the old man.

and what did i get in return? a smugging face from the poor old man. its like his face was telling me that i'm looking down on him thinking that he's old and weak when he thinks he's not. and he didnt seat. stupid old man. just sit lah. being old also care about ego.

untill now, i just hope that when i get to sit in the train or bus, there would be no pregnant woman or old people unless the woman is like obviously pregnant without any doubt and the old people looks totally weak and desperate for a seat instead of snobbish old people who's not grateful enough when we give up our seat.

sigh...ironically,chasing pavements appear to be easier than giving up.

not again!!!

2008-06-05T10:15:00.000-07:00

i can never stop talking about the contender.
cant help it...totally love the show.
just now was zach from singapore and zidov from switzerland.
did u watch it? i just cant get enough of it!! one of my favourite part would be the wai khru. i think wai khru is so freakin cool. i'm gonna learn how to wai khru someday. can i learn from soren? he's bloody cute lah ok. i think he's the cutest of all followed by rafik then maybe zach. but i think yoddy is the best fighter. anyway, i thought zach fought quite well. his techniques were really good. did he learn silat before?unfortunately, he lost because he actually dislocated his shoulder. my oh my...that was scary. i could see the joint of his arm moving away from his shoulder. really scary. i hope he's ok. is he malay? hmmm...

i know i'm a bit late. its like most of them have watched contender but thats because they have cable tv. its not fair!! i also want cable tv so i wont be so outdated and i dont have to watch soccer online using sopcast! i told dad about it but he refused unless i pay the bills. he gotta be kidding! with a salary of $6.50 an hour, i dont think thats possible! furthermore, i still have to pay my hp and gym bills. i am so poor lah ok.

now i'm like so addicted to psp. and believe it or not, i play zendoku! its something like sudoku but they are pictures and there will be obstacles at certain intervals. the obstacles are so silly lah sey. it drivs me crazy when trying to complete the obstacles. i know sudoku sounds so boring but its my favourite puzzle game ever.

i suddenly remembered this occasion that happened yesterday on the train. i took the train back from my office to dad's. so naturally in the train, i will always scout for untaken seats and yesterday the untaken seat was actually beside this caucasian guy. he was with his friends but they were sitting opposite him and some chose to stand. they look like sailors or those in the army. they are so well built and i think they are americans. anyway, just after i sat,i took out psp and played my favourite zendoku.

while playing, the caucasian guy beside was saying something like "i dont know what she's playing! i cant make sense of it and its not like the game we played!" to his bunch of friends.

macam terasa gitu kan...was he talking about me? couldnt be lah. if somebody wants to talk or bitch about somebody next to him/her, this somebody wouldnt say it in a language the person next to him/her can understand and definitely not loudly. so i reckoned, this guy couldnt be talking about me. i guess this is the perceptions we singaporeans have.

then this angmoh continued.."i only see a fan and samurais! its like she's trying to fan the samurais away" and he was saying it even more loudly and clearly then laugh, its like purposely tryna make me hear and he might thought i have hearing problems that he had to talk so loudly. ok, so no doubt he's talking about me. yeah, i was tryna fan the samurais away. so what? told ya that the obstacles are pretty silly.

so i then turned to the guy. right away i stared into his blue eyes (very nice i should say) and sounding quite annoyed, i said "what? u wanna try playing this game?" then shove the psp towards him. he immediately said "NO NO, its ok, u go ahead and play" then he gave me a corny smile. and i did what he said but he still never stopped commenting about the game i was playing to his friends. what is he? a commentator? he keeps saying that he couldnt make sense of the game i was playing. said that the game i was playing was like guessing game bla bla bla. it kinda pissed me off a lil although i tried really hard to not be bothered by it. but i cant, i was too bothered by his comments so i turned to him again and explain that the game i was playing is something like sudoku and i'm no fool to let him talk senseless things about me all the way.

my explanation was just a waste of my effort because he said he knows sudoku and the game i was playing is nothing like sudoku. duh..of course! i did say its 'something' like sudoku not it is sudoku. this time i really cant be bothered and ignored him. but he was really being irritating because he was imitating me all the way. and when i tried to cheat, he said in the most unbelievable tone saying " NO!! thats cheating!". i didnt know angmoh could be so kaypoh. so what if i wanna cheat. its my game and its got nothing to do with him. maybe he needed response so i turned to him again and just smile to acknowledge his efforts in trying to distract me. i kept wondering when will the bugger besides me will alight then i heard him saying to his friends that they had 1 more stop to go. thank goodness. i can finally sigh a relief and play my zendoku in peace.

when they reached their stop he actually tapped my shoulder. so i looked up to him and he said something about being nice meeting me and waving goodbye to me. ok, perhaps he wasnt that bad and maybe thats how americans interact when they are in the train. they can make fun or do anything they can think of with any strangers they met. not something we singaporeans would do. that was quite a bizarre encounter for me but definitely and experience to me. at least i sorta learnt how different, people from another country communicate with the people around them.

now i feel like travelling around the world and learn the different cultures.
any sponsors?

have u watched step up 2? did u noticed what they did in the train? does certain things like that often occur? maybe its just the traits of americans. i dunno??

392 new mails

2008-06-04T07:55:00.000-07:00

i can finally use my laptop and it just feel so good...
all this while when using my dad's tablet, i cant even go to hotmail.
very irritating and i had to suffer for like ermm..3 weeks?
and within 3 weeks, i got like almost 400 mails. gilaaa!
ouh and i couldnt msn as well!!!

after so long, i finally can msn and one of the people to chat with me is my lil bimbotic cuzzin.
of all people!!!!!!!grrrrr
not that i hate or dislike her to call her bimbotic.
the fact is she totally behaves like a bimbo. she's the youngest bimbo i ever knew and she can be quite annoying.
if u see her, you wouldnt believe that somebody who's not even close to 10 years old can behaves like a bimbo.

gosh i'm bad, really a bad cousin i am. hah!! just cant help it.
anyhow, this was how the convo goes:

BC (bimbo cuzzie): kak dian, can play game with me?

me: (since i was in a good mood i actually said): ok,whhat game u wanna play?

bc: play uno

me: ok

she then invited me to play scissors-paper-stone.
i was like---- i thought she said uno. ok, never mind cos maybe all bimbos thought that they are the same game. so i just went ahead and play the silly game with her. hah! i won in like less than 5 mins.

bc: arghh!! i lost

me: hehe (trying my best not to be cruel)

then she invited me another game. this time, its really uno and she actually won. perhaps she wasnt as bimbotic as what i thought she was. then she invited me to play tic tac toe.
i won this time. she actually fell for my trick easily.

finally she invited me to play reversi? is she kidding me? its a strategy game! how can a kid play reversi. i was then thinking, perhaps she is a smart kid afterall since her mummy claims so. after the game, i finally knew where she got her bimbotic traits from...her mummy. hahaha. she lost big time ok. not trying to brag but normally when i play reversi, it takes me quite some time to come up with a strategy win. but hers, its like no thinking even needed. still got the cheek to play with me.

gosh, when i read back,i noticed how bad i am to even think that way of my annoying lil cuzzie. its not her fault, her mum drives me crazy and then it goes directly to her daughter.

argghhh, truth is, i just dunno what to blog about and she happened to annoy me at the wrong time. sorry cuzzie...

my dad's mini laptop is called tablet

2008-05-29T08:36:00.000-07:00

guess what? i'm watching the contender right now
its now zhabar FROM UAE vs david from UK.
WOW, THE MATCH IS PRETTY Hot in there. one after another had bleedings on their head. very fierce fight. but i really think that its more like a brawl. not really a good fight. zhabar keeps playing dirty and david keeps falling. very dissapointing from both. so i dont care who actually won cos both werent that impressive. anyhow, zhabar won by a single point.
now i cant wait to see zach from singapore to fight which is next week. the way he talks sometimes can be quite 'yaya' but he seems like a cool guy too. i wonder how he's gonna fair when he fight.

its sad when one leaves after losing no matter which team they're from. of all that have lost and left, david said the most inspiring word...
david said something like : "when someone fall, they are being judged on whether they can pick themselves up and i'm gonna pick myself up" well, it wasnt the exact words but i think what he meant was that losing and falling isnt the end of the world because u can still strive to win and pick yourself up. everyone has their second chance but its up to them to use it or not.

so chelsea lost to manchester united during the finals of the champions league. there are sources saying that they are very sad, dissapointed, bla bla bla but who doesnt? but like what david said, chelsea can always pick themselves up and win the next time. i'm happy man utd won although i didnt watch. gosh, talking abt why i didnt watch really makes my blood boiling. now i dont feel like talking about it. grrr.

yesterday, i went to the singapore flyer with nam, kianwai, mas and shin. we didnt ride on it but we were cam whoring all night and not to forget, the big dinner we had and the forfeit food we had to eat for losing in the secret number game. i kept guessing the correct number and had to eat all the weird things but luckily i wasnt alone. shin had to as well. haha. we're in the same boat. mas should be the luckiest because we had to cheat in order to make her lose and eat. ooopsss...sssshhhh....hahaha

what do you think of our singapore flyer? i'm fine with it but the only thing i'm not so happy with is the name! 'singapore flyer'? arent there any other names. of course we cant use 'singapore eye' else its like copying london's 'london eye'. but singapore flyer? i rather we use singapore's ferris wheel or something like that or perhaps anything better than the word 'flyer'. i wonder who suggested the name...hmmm...

this month is movie month for me. i watch another movie last week. its a malay horror movie...yes..."congkak". i would rate it 6.5 over 10. its not as scary but the storyline wasnt that bad at all. and i have to agree that its slightly better than the merepek 'jangan pandang belakang'. actually the only thing that makes congkak somehow scary is the sound, other than that....its just normal.

sigh...i really wanna type more but my dad's tablet...yes its called tablet is freaking small and the keypad its so tiny even for my not so big fingers. its so irritating that i feel like smashing this tablet. but i cant cos i need to go online with this.

arggghhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

frrigggiinn irritatin

2008-05-23T09:48:00.000-07:00

Alhamdulillah, after 3 long dreadful weeks, exams are finally over.
just now was my last paper, it was banking and finance. the paper was fine except that i cant answer a 7 mark question. i totally cant answer it. i cant even make stories. what do u expect? it was asking about the historical evolution of savings and loan associations in the United States. I wouldnt read about something so boring even if i had to. gosh, excuses. its just me. i simply hate history question in banking and finance.

so many things have been happening these few weeks. first, it was my exam. my first paper was economics. I remembered feeling so stressed and nervous and of all paper, econs had to be the first. grr.. anyway, i think i screwed the paper and chances is that, i might have to retake it again next year. oh allah, please dont let that come true, pretty pretty please...

then it was the reality tv show 'the contenders'. my my, i love that show. if only i could participate in it....hmmm....ok i change my mind. i guess its better for me not to. hahs. the match between yodsanklai (or whatever his name is) and bruce wasnt a good one i should say. it appears that this yoddy guy was like bullying the pitiful bruce. but then again what yod used was pretty basic and he used it for all the rounds. its just left kick, block and punch. cant bruce counter back yod's techniques. maybe yods was just too good and i dont think anyone would deny it especially on the fact that he actually won this contender game. perhaps he ought to since the reasons on why he participated were pretty virtuous. he did it for his country and family..ooooo..... then there was the match between the hotty guy soren and sickly allain. it was a knockout for soren because he wounded allain's head untill it had to be stitched. poor allain... now i cant wait for the next match. i think i am beginning to love muaythai...weee....

enough talk about contender, because maybe now i should start doing movie critics. I watched the popular 'ayat ayat cinta' and if were to rate it, i would give 6.5 out of 10. before watching this movie, fiq actually told me that he dislikes the movie because it didnt really potrays egyptian life and of course he said the acting sucks. To me, i cant agree with him because first, i dont know how egyptian life is like and i dont really care because what matters most from this movie is how the story goes, the plotting, the message and everything. I wouldnt say the acting was bad. its more of like average but i dont think those who watch it would really notice because fahri is just so cute, aisha is just so stunning and maria is just too pretty. kanglun watched it with me and he said, it was really an eye opener to him. he was saying that this kind of love story is very unique and his perceptions towards islam and its teachings actually changed i guess. hopefully to a better ones than before insyaallah.

i also have to mention this. itsfunnily strange and so random. after one of my papers, i think it was accounts paper, i took a bus home from one of the bustops and do take note of this, its bustop not bus interchange. the bus was pretty crowded then there was this old auntie moving around in the bus like she was looking for something except that apparently she wasnt. she then came up to the lady beside me and asked "is this the second stop?"

now if u were the lady beside me, what would u reply?its like how would i know if this is the second stop because u didnt tell me where the initial stop was at. i think the lady was quite appalled by the question and didnt know what to say at that moment. but when she treid to say something later, the old auntie just walked away and move further up to ask a young man the same question. this man, he was quite stunned as well and his face expressed that he was quite crossed but fortunately he reacted quickly and askd the auntie where she wanted to head to. I hope the auntie reached her destination safely. and guess what? this old autie actually wanted to go eastpoint mall actually. hehehe..so cute. she could simply say she wanted to go there and we would be more that happy to tell her which stop to alight at.

wow..when i scrolled back up, i realised that i've talked a lil bit too much. maybe i should stop now because i'm now using my dad's mini laptop and its quite irritating cos its so small. i'll blog again another day and cant wait to talk about the festival, champions league, american idol and more random stuffs.

maria: rah fein fahri?
fahri: ila talaqi
(dialogue from ayat-ayat cinta)

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2008-05-05T10:47:00.000-07:00

I have nothing to blog about actually.
i just log in and i just wanna say random things.

there are 2 movies that i wana watch currently.
one is 'ayat-ayat cinta' and another is 'harold and kumar'
kanglun has volunteerd to watch ayat-ayat cinta with me
and naz dont mind watching harold and kumar with me.
I'm so excited. there shall be no excuses not to watch movies altho its exam period. blearghh

there are so many people i wanna meet up.
so many people, so little time
grr
i wanna meet chuanyi, my retarded girls, my homies, nam gagak, my sec sch girls
its just everyone. I miss u all!!

and this one is funny.
I've been putting this nick on my msn messenger.
it says 'your love is a lie'
its actually a song title, by simple plan and i love the song.
jai saw my nick, said few unimportant things then say...
"my love to you is like sambal belacan, its hot and spicy and sometimes sweet"
hahaha
how can he compare love to sambal belacan?? hahaha

this sunday is festival pencak silat temasek and believe it or not, i'm participating in it.
looks like i'm taking another riskss. exams and festival. these 2 need lots of my commitment.
i'm so scared, i have economics paper this thursday and statistics this friday.

oh Allah, please help me. please dont let me go online anymore and blog unnecessay stuffs till exams are over.

hey, whats wrong with that?

2008-05-02T09:01:00.000-07:00

whats wrong with rafik? why do people around me hate the people i like? for instance, I like rafik but my friends keep dissing him. yeah yeah i know he's cocky but thats how he is. For all we know, he was being cocky because he's trying to cover up his inferiority? humans act the way they are for a reason and rafik being that way, i'm sure he has his reasons. I'll always be your fan rafik!

hmm...so when is the finals for the...is it EPL? Oh dear...this time, i must watch it. I missed the match between man u and barcelona!!! I was so excited to watch it and stayed up till about 2:45am because i've always been a fan of man u (being the main reason is because christiano ronaldo is in..haha). So when watching halfway, Izy had to use the pc to submit her schoolwork. grr..i was quite pissed off firstly because she could have submitted it earlier, second, i dont have cable tv so i had to install sopcast to watch the live channel online. ok and so i told her to tell me once she finish doing her stuffs. While waiting, i fell asleep. whhaddaya expect? its almost 4am in the morning! and i cant wake up to continue watching and so i missed watching the match. Thank goodness man u won.

after that, it was the chelsea vs liverpool. Not really a fan of both because owen is no more in liverpool and ballack is getting uglier. But i really wanted to watch it and was hoping for liverpool to win cos i am not gonna see man u vs chelsea again and the match between man u and liverpool for the finals will be much more interesting i reckoned. so before the match, i was mugging (exams round the corner and i know i know, i shouldnt be blogging and watching football at that) in case i fell asleep again. so i mugged untill almost 3 then watch the game with my bro. haha..but guess what...we both fell asleep right after chelsea scored the first goal. haha. our eyes cannot tahan anymore so we just slept and regretted it the next morning. haha. but anyway, liverpool still lost so i guess we're gonna watch another chelsea vs man u. go man u!!!

speaking abt football, when i was watching football with my cousins, this cousin of mine actually commented something. I think what instigated him to comment was because of the things i said. You know girls...most girls watch football not because they like football but its because of the players. Girls, please dont lie in order to fit in. Whats wrong with admiring the players? you dont have to deny this fact and guys, u dont have to make such a sarcastic remark of how idiotic our comments on footballs could be. Let me tell u, those are not idiotic comments, thats how we see it intelligently and most importantly from another point of view. period. So this cousin of mine was sarcastically commenting on my comments and i was quite annoyed. Like so what if we admire the players? are u jealous cos u dont look or play good as them? boleh blah ok! christiano ronaldo is hot and when he plays football, he's even hotter. hmphh.

well, actually i know of a girl who really appreciates football as how the guys would. she's a liverpool fan and she would stay up just to watch liverpool's game and she would buy newpaper just to get the liverpool football news. isnt she cute? now she's different and perhaps the only kind. my kind of girls, we just like the players but we still rocks.Just dont be ashamed of it by trying to fit in with the guys.

dreams dreams of when we had just started things...

who is your contender?

2008-05-01T12:39:00.000-07:00

i'm now officially a fan of 'the contender'.
i havent got the chance to watch 'the contender' before due to some reasons like i thought it could be just like another boring reality tv show like emm..survivor? (survivor was interesting initially but it gets boring as there are more survivors)

anyway, one of the contenders caught my attention somehow. His name is Rafik. He is a morrocan representing france and he caught my attention not just because i think he looks quite cute and quite hot other than being quite intimidating to other contenders. Its just the words he say and the way he behave.

He said his heart is strong and his mind is even stronger. When he said that, it made me think of the days when i was an active athlete (i said active because i'm still an athlete but not really an active one). Most athletes think that the most important thing that they should have in order to win is to have the skill and of course the physical abilities. Many actually dont realise that what your heart feels and what your mind thinks are essential as well. One of my coaches used to say 'its always mind over matter' and when you put your mind to it, you'll definitely get it. And let me tell you, its true most of the times and i've experienced it myself.

So back to Rafik, after said that, he gave me the impression that he really has a strong mind or at least, he's trying to be strong up there. Before his match, he prepared his usual preparations while trying to stay focused. And during the match itself I think he did quite well. Staying focused and doing his best. His contender was a good one. I think he was the champion of something and he's from Australia. He's the captain for his team and I caN see pressure on his face. Good as he is, I feel that his mind is not as strong as Rafik. When he was losing one of the rounds, i could really see that his mental was down. His performance deteriorate but surprisingly he managed to pick up during the last few rounds. Perhaps his mental was up back. Good for him. at least he didnt lose face. So why did rafik lost? could it be he's just putting a strong mind front? i could see he was nervous but anyway, he wasnt a sore loser and he showed sportsmanship when he lost. I salute him for that.

Grr..I was really rooting for rafik although he might seems like a jerk sometimes. but he lost and had to go home. this is really sad. perhaps one of the reasons he had to go home is not only because of his big strong heart but also a big mouth. You know rafik, I dont mind your big mouth and i like your big heart so it would be really nice if we could have a date. hehehe.

*dreams dreams dreams*

shouts

2008-04-25T10:26:00.000-07:00

i love my new blog layout
changing to a new blog layout...isnt it a sign of moving on?
ehehe

this one, i really have to give credit to naz...
she helped me with the layout and everything because my pc is just so bodoh and i really hate it.
furthermore, i'm just too lazy and yada yada yada *all the excuses u can think of*
but naz really did quite a good job. now she knows my username and password so if u see some weird post on my blog, then it must be naz's work cos she's the only who knows my password and username other than me of course.

so today was officially last day of school for the first academic year. hopefully i would never have to repeat any modules. Its been a tough year. Although first year is done, exams are still not over. LSE exams can be quite unpredictable. but what can i say, its LSE...

i tried the 'dulce du leche or something like that' coffee from starbucks just now. really wanted to try it since the first time i heard dan and young promoting it on radio. well, the coffee wasnt that bad but it wasnt what i expected as well. it taste just like another caramel frap. i'm not really a huge fan of coffee but i do know how to appreciate really nice good coffee. i was expecting much more from the dulce something actually, so was a lil dissapointed. ggrr, wasted my 6 bucks and i shouldnt be splurging on coffee which i can get less than a buck somewhere else. people...its inflationnn

so abg paii is getting engaged tomorrow. another someone around me getting 'hitched' and i'm pretty excited cos most of the engagement party i've been to or was in was from the ladies side and tomorrow i'm experiencing from the guy's side. i wonder how its gonna be like. hmm.....

what would you do if....
while you were shopping with your bestie,
1)you bumped onto your ex-crush who actually knew u had a crush on him/her
2) and your ex-crush actually had something going on with your bestie that is shopping with u right now
3) but it didnt turn out good with your bestie as well.
4) and because both of u are besties, u are aware of whats going on.
so what would u really do?

hmmmm....

how about we move on?

2008-04-24T05:00:00.000-07:00

"move on" might be something that is easy to say
but it is also certainly hard to do so.
can we really move on and be nonchalant?
you might be saying you could but your heart could be denying it as well.
or perhaps you think you have moved on and tried to believe so but you arent even realising that you're holding on to something which you thought you have moved on from.
you tried all kinds of means to show and make it seem like you've moved on but you know best too that you're deceiving none other than yourself.

homosapiens are just weird. their behaviours are seldom justified and they constantly seek for justification. Ironically, they too understand its how things should be. Afterall, this is how we've been created, and I have nothing other than praises for Allah.

so anyway, I'm trying to move on from the 'edison' topic.
much as i like him, i wouldnt want to talk about him all day long.
and apparently me liking and talking about him have caused some unhappines among some people. so i shall be considerate and blog about some other stuffs.

its been around a month since Mas Selamat has escaped from Whitley Detention Center. He was said to be JI leader of Singapore, not sure how true it is, wallahuaa'lam. Now his 'Wanted Posters' are everywhere yet he's nowhere to be found. When he first escaped, i think the first thing that goes into the mind of Singaporeans would be on how the hell he managed to escape given the tight security that Singapore has. Perhaps it was all a matter of negligence, afterall we're all humans and humans are never perfect....

but after some time, few rumours actually evolved. Rumor has it that he's already in Indonesia and rumor also has it that Mas Selamat was actually dead. He was tortured to death and to cover up, they actually spread the news saying he escaped. Surprisingly it was Gavin (a chinese) who told me (a malay) this rumor which apparently was spread among the malays.

Regarding this rumour, I acually found it to be quite interesting. I mean, it sounds ridiculous at first but if you really thought about it...we can never rule out this possibility. If its really true, then I guess they might have stolen this idea from Prison Break. hahahaha. Anyway, I don't choose to believe the rumor since DPM Wong had assured us on how untrue the rumour is....I guess. So arent I an examplary citizen? hahaha. But I still did ask few of my classmates on what they think about the rumors.

I have actually gotten 2 extreme opinions from 2 extreme kinda people although they are of the same gender and age. One is, a mixed malay-indian muslim girl who strongly believes the rumor to be true while on the other hand another is, a chinese buddhist girl who strongly believes the rumour to be so untrue. Luckily I asked them at different time or else they would have fight and argue about this. But anyway, I was just wondering, could our backgrounds reflect on the way we think? hmm...

haha...ok

2008-04-11T09:16:00.000-07:00

wow!
i didnt know me liking edison would cause someone to hate me.
This someone must have hated me since he/she wants me shattered and cussed me with whatever cussing word he/she could think of. (i tell you ah, the cussing is so kental)
gosh now i dunno whether to laugh or cry.

hmm..for all i know...
you could be the edison's friend who 'pouutoed' on him and you're angry cos i said u're a bastardy friend and bla bla bla. in case u dont know or u happend to be a gundu, 'pouutoed' means tell on somebody.

or you might even be one of the girls from edison's explicit unbelievable photo collection and let me tell you something...you're not hot but dont worry you're not alone cos none of them is hot. Didnt know edison would go for such type. I thought ed could do better. Maggie Q is an exception although she might not be one of them.

or you might even be just some ordinary netizens who doesnt know what he/she is angry about. haha.. c'mon lah, in what way did it affect you? are you angry on behalf of the girls? do you even know that it takes two hand to clap?

ok so lets just face it and come to terms with it, edison seems like a casanova. he takes pictures while doing it (aha..multitasking...something which guys arent normally good at) and he's just stupid for sending his laptop for repairs just like that. Negligence on his part I should say. But if all that didnt happened, i'm sure we wouldnt know some of the girls are like that, if you know what i mean. Really an eye opener.

I felt a lil upset actually when those things happened and there came to a point where any amount of denials could not convinced me and the people on how fake the pictures could be. But when i thought about it again, I realised that I shouldnt be affected by it and everyone shouldnt too. If u've seen or gotta know about it then just forget about it after that. Its really pointless to talk about it especially when we know that we couldnt do anything about something that have happened. Not that you can reverse it and why should you anyway? But then again, this thing is also quite a juicy thing to talk and joke about. Some just cant help it.

I remember having this conversation few days ago with my classmates, Gavin and Kelvin. They knew I like edison and then Gavin told me that edison was coming to town with ShuQi for some hollywood thingy. (Ed's can be quite of a smart lass, he left HK entertainment cause he knows he can do something at hollywood) Being me, I was kinda excited so I asked them if they have any idea where ed could be hanging out when he's here in Singapore. And kelvin being kelvin, he said "perhaps you can go to boat quay, you might catch him there" I just nodded and started to think what is there at boat quay and even before I finished thinking, Kelvin actually added "If you cant find him at Boat Quay, then go Geylang, sure find him at one of the lorongs" we then burst out laughing madly...

I guess those are just one of the many ocasions where we couldnt help joke about it. But dont be too serious can???just because you hate edison then u can go around hating and cussing other people who likes edison? that is so childish. If thats how things should be then this world would then be filled with hatred. Not that I approved what edison did. Do I even have the right to judge him in the first place? To err is human and nobody is perfect. At least ed apologized and admitted his mistake in public. What more could we ask for?

so what I do now is go back to the beginning on why I actually like edison. If I liked him because he doesnt go around doing 'stuffs' and take pictures at the same time then I sould be shot if I still like him now. I feel that if we like an artiste, shouldnt we like him/her based on what he/she potrays his/her 'artwork' and not something beyond that? do think about it.

Dear Canadian Fan, nobody tells me what I should do especially sinful things like sleeping with somebody unless he's my husband. You might find sleeping around a no big deal for all I know you might sleep around like nobody's business too and perhaps you've been shattered before and now u want somebody else to be shattered too and that somebody happens to be me and i'm just unlucky because i happend to like edison but too bad your dreams cant come true. Furthermore, first, i dont think ed wanna sleep with me either cos i'm just hot and he prefers girls that are not. Second, I dont like second hand 'stuffs' and ed's one have been countless hands. So u get what I mean? btw, what do 'suck on' means? *act blurrr*

ahahah...after all that I've said (or typed)....i was thinking why I should even be bothered by it? explaining and justifying myself when what I could easily do is just delete the comment away and pretend no such comments even exist...hmph..silly me. I guess this is what i deserve for not posting something for such a long time. huhuhu...

people...carpe diem

I DON'T CARE

2008-02-02T00:58:00.000-08:00

i dont normally reply tag comments on my post
but since i'm doing a new post might as well reply to it.

To J, I don't care whatever you are,
or whatever weird email u have like a@a.com
(yah i know its fake)
or whatever you have to say about the photos.
cos,since i'm not going to believe it and insist that its fake,
then, its going to be that way.
period.
but thanks anyway~

i know some say i'm too obsessed with edison
but c'mon...can't i?
is the way i'm behaving too obsessy?
can't I even deny the fact that thats what edison been doing?
i still have my life and I'm happy with it.
I just need a lil bit of fantasy and obsession
and I've chosen edison.
he deserves it cos he's just different and i like his style.
i might be ignorant, but ignorance is bliss.

in the paper, its his bastardy friend who had betrayed him
saying that he shows his friends shots of his personal privately acts with his gf.
ok, so what if its true, does it kill the friend to not expose this to the media? how much did they pay u?
what kinda friend are u? oh yes, i know, u must be really jealous of ed u sakker
and becoming the jealous friend, i'm sure u are happy now that u've somehow ruined not just ed's life but also the gilrs linked to him.
I wouldnt be that surprised if reports about Gillian tryna kill herself is true.

ed said in his blog that the papers have been putting false statements.
since he said so then i believe the things that've been reported are untrue.
i wonder how's ed's feeling right now...
i know all of these sucks but i'm sure there are lot more people behind him.
I am and whatever it is....ed, you're still the best!

edison chen a playboy?

2008-02-01T07:40:00.000-08:00

i've always been so so so into edison chen
i looovvveee him like hell k and i still do
i remember falling in love with him the first time i saw him on tv.
he has this intense look, the look that u cannot erase from your mind
he also has charm that never fails on any girls i guess.
he's just simply cute that if u ever get hold of him,
you wont even think of letting him go.
i for instance wont even let him go for even a sec.

then last year, i gotta know that he was seeing someone.
wincy they say her name..ooops...i mean vincy
anyway, when i heard their stories i really thought they're such a sweet couple and stupid vincy was so damn lucky to have edison. She better hold him tight or else.....urghh...dont even think of it... duhhh
ed is just so boyfriend material

but then again, just today morning....
while on the bus, a guy infront of me was reading the paper
being so kaypoy i just sneak a peep and guess what i saw on the tiny top red headlines?
its about edison chen's new scandal victim!!!!
that bloody girl was cecila cheung!!!!
and the article even mentioned the previous celebrities before her who actually had their explicit scenes on films or pics or whatever u wanna call it as long as its a form of media and it was with eddsss!!!

and shan wee even quoted on air that ed is a playboy!
(perhaps he got the source from somewere but still.....)
ed's a playboy? u gotta be kidding me? that cant be true.
well,not trying to be bias here but does ed even got the time to fool around?
he's so busy with his amazing high class brand name business and of cos his job as a star. i wonder if he even got quality time to spend with his gf. well, if i'm the gf, i would love him too much to even mind. hah!

i even go to the extent of checking the pics online.
and i really cant believe my eyes....
THOSE PICS ARE FAKE
(i mean the one with ed)
i bet they are totally fake, been photoshopped or something....
edison chen, my only love cant be that and i forbid so!!!!

ARRGGGGHHHHH THIS IS SO INFURIATINNGGG!!!!!!!

nikmat seketika

2008-01-31T05:38:00.000-08:00

have u ever experienced the feeling of nikmat although for just a short while?i bet u had.
this few weeks i've been really tired. penat giler tau, totally lack of sleep. kadang2 one day, i only get abt 4 hours of sleep.

then few days ago, i was so shack that i took a nap in the office on my table.it wasnt that long, sekejap jer, around 5-10 mins like that but i tell u.....nikmat kkk.....tulah dipanggil nikmat seketika

so mum's finally home. dah 3 minggu tau she's in hospital and she's back. rindu mama kat rumah, rindu masakan mama.but i guess for now i'm the one who has to do the cooking provided there's nobody doing the cooking and my sibs better be thankful for that instead of saying "tak cayer gitu kak dian yang masak" when i simply cook few dishes.....wth?am i that lousy that i cant cook that well?grr....tak masak baru tau

hajar pulak...she finally got into SIA and i'm happy for her but at the same time i'm sad as well cos i'm gonna miss her loads. baru training dah jarang jumpa so guess how often we're gonna meet when she starts flying?

i missed the 'smoke' break we used to havethats when we actually talk stuffs. stuffs that needs to be let out but i certainly hope she's gonna do well in her job this time. it has always been her dreams

i'm sort of envious of her cos after training she will start flying. she's gonna be travelling.....best kan? jealous k
takper, once i earn lotsa money,i'm gonna take my family for vacation. who knows hajar might be the one offering her services to us. alangkah indahnya.. i bet it will be the craziest flight experience in history.hehehes

penguin

2008-01-24T09:55:00.000-08:00

ok, so this is my first post for year 2008
hmm... i wonder how old my blog is already...

i like penguins
but i cant remember why i like them
they arent cute unless they are cartoons
they cant fly
they are dull because they come in black and white
patches of those 2 colours
they have big bellies
they are just ugly

but i just cant help liking them
i know beyond their undesireable physical appearance
there's something special in them

and so i read somewhere about penguins
its nothing much but i find it quite meaningful
there's this story about penguins.
apparently,penguins mate for life.
when they found their mate,
they stay together for the rest of their life.
no matter what happens.
isnt that sweet?
i wonder who's gonna be my penguin....
hmmm....

contradicting but yeahh...

2007-09-13T08:46:00.000-07:00

i can eat yet i cant at the same time

childish but matured at the same time

i want it but i dont think i want it at the same time

above are so contradicting statements that i'm going through now
life is about making decisions
and I swear its one of the toughest
especially when u are so fickled
and decisions to be made are pretty important

to be or not to be, thats the question....

bila rindu in masih milikmu
ku hadirkan sebuah tanya untukmu
harus berapa lamu aku menunggumu?

worst than a hangover

2007-09-09T07:49:00.000-07:00

not that i've experienced hangover before
but i guess tthe bad headache i'm having now is pretty similiar to a bad hangover
just that i'm much much sober i guess

i dunno if its migraine or not
but the headache is soooo terrible
i will get the same headache each time I eat something that has a weird smell, drink a small carton of yeos bandung or soya bean, eat instant otah2, sleep more than 10 hours and emmm, i guess thats about it cos i havent discovered others.

anyway its just bad and i need to make a call later
grrr
no way am i popping paracetomol!

ARRRGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it must be the tanjak. screw u tanjak!

bleargh

2007-09-08T08:49:00.000-07:00

ok, so everytime i post something
i would be saying the same shit again
saying that i havent been blogging, been busy been bla bla bla

hahaha
excuses of mine
no matter how genuine it can be
the bottom line is
i'm still lazy
hah!

i've started school again
just that this time
its a lil bit different
sigh
i missed poly life

ramadhan is approaching
and i'm always looking forward to ramadhan
and honestly
its my most fav month of the year
this year ramadhan, i might be starting it a lil later than the rest
you know...
its that time of the month
and i'll still be having it during the beginning of ramadhan
ohh
ramadhan mubarak!!!

i'm wondering
whats the purpose of a blog?
what is a blog?

not that i dont know
just that I guess,
its subjective on how people define blog.
to me, blog is a place for us to share thoughts, events and stuffs with people
and things that are not meant to be shared, ie: really very personal shouldnt be in a blog.
it should be in a diary should u need to pen/type it out.
it shouldnt be read by others.
I just dont understand why some people can just be too open
and i couldnt careless if it only involves them
the thing is, its involving other people as well
and the embarrassment is totally on them
since friends are reading it

my oh my
people nowadaysss...

or perhaps
i'm just too conservative
close minded maybe?
(is there such word?)

have u ever been in love?
i havent
and i wonder how it feels like.
i mean, i've liked some people before
and having crushes are not new things to me
but love for someone special?
guess it has only been the love for Allah, rasul, my family and friends.
of course i'm dying to experience 'that kind' of love
not now maybe
i've heard people saying that love hurts
and if it didnt then its not love
why is that so?
if its gonna hurt, why bother to love?
sigh

perhaps, i'll blog about it when i've experienced it

duh
i'm going to sleep now

random thoughts

2007-07-15T21:48:00.000-07:00

whats the remedy to cure flu?

adapting to something new is easy, but adapting back to the original is hard.

strawberry flavoured pocky is nice

whats the missing piece?

can money fall down from the sky?

i hate my lappie keyboard, the 'm' is not working right

2007-07-08T03:45:00.000-07:00

FAT

I am fat
and because of that
I am so upset

i want a size 'm'
but they insist i wear 'l'
cos they think i'm fat
and i am so upset

I was happy with my size before
but not anymore
cos they think i'm fat
and i am so upset

i love to eat
now i dont dare to eat
cos they think i'm fat
and i am so upset

i hate to diet
but now i want to diet
cos they think i'm fat
and i am so upset

i enjoy working out
now i just want to starve
cos they think i'm fat
and i am so upset

i used to sympatised anaeroxiac
now i wanna be anaeroxic
cos they think i'm fat
and i am so upset

i love to be curvy
now i just wanna be skinny
cos they think i'm fat
and i am so upset

i hate being fat
and i am so upset

sobs sobs sobs

2007-07-06T21:06:00.000-07:00

07-07-07

today is such a nice day with a nice date
its my bro's b'day and yesterday was my sis' b'day
so well, happy birthday to both of u.
and apparently, my cuzzie is getting married today,
nice date she has chosen
easy to remember and there's no way they can forget it
and when people asked when u get married,
u can simply say 7-7-7
how cool is that?!
very cool...

so well, my point is
i'm gonna choose a nice wedding date too
and i've decided it to be on
10-10-10
its 7 days before my birthday
its on my favourite month
and i wud be 24, a quite nice age i wud say
how cool is that?!!
very cool....

ok ppl,
i chop 10-10-10 oredi hor.
dun be kaypoh go take that date to get married oso hor
u all must come
its at botanical garden so u'll get the best company of flowers, trees, butterflies and beeess
hehehes
gosh i love to dream!
did i tell u that before?

i'm back

2007-07-01T10:49:00.000-07:00

hahhahaha

i'm posting just for the sake of posting

1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9 10

yup
10 of them all
10 bruises
i'm not sure if they're even worth it to be on my body.

i'm lousy
and i hate being lousy

bye

Food Diary

2007-05-03T10:50:00.000-07:00

My Food Diary

Wednesday, 2nd May 2007

Morning:
- half plate of murtabak
- jenny cake
- 1 slice of bread+nuttella
- 1 cup of coffee

Afternoon:
- 4 donuts (2 double chocs, 1 strawberry and 1 apple cinnamon)
- 1 and 1/2 plate of rice with sweet sour fish + vege (sedap giler)
- some potato snacks

Night:
- 1 and 1/2 plate of rice with sweet sour fish + vege (still sedap giler)
- 1 plate of fried BanMian

Thursday, 3rd May 2007:

Morning:
- 2 slices of bread with nutella
- 1 char kway with peanut butter
- 1 'butterfly' (something like jenny cake)
- 1 cup of cofee

Afternoon:
- 2 slices of bread with chicken nuggets
- 1 plate of rice + chicken+beef+vege+tempe
- lime juice

Tea break:
- some snacks
- 1 chocolate cream puff and 1 strawberry cream puff
- 1 slice of suji cake
- 1 goreng pisang
- 1 teh tarik

Night(dinner)
- 1 plate of chicken murtabak!

i'm just putting up my food diary for fun
to see how much I've eaten
(i posted everything for fun anyway)
and apparently, from the food diary itself
my apettite is getting bigger and scarier

i wonder what and how much I'll be eating tomorrow

well,
i kinda have in mind to have breakfast at maybe ...
McD or Burger King?
big breakfast, turkey ham, mushroom swiss, hash brown, pancakes,milo freeze, fillet O fish, bla bla bla....
eeemmmm...

pms i guess
hopefully it doesnt last long
or i'll have a hard time working out

tax + donut

2007-05-02T02:18:00.000-07:00

hahah
I'm finally updating more but kinda dissapointed
because I've no pictures to show
thus even makes my blog even more dull.
grr...

all the pictures are in my lappie
and all this while,
I've actually been hitching onto my neighbour's wireless
sssshhhhhh
its not my fault anyway, cos he didnt secure it

ok so lets just call this neighbour of mine, Borat
(not real name)
recently, I dunno whats up with Borat
either he finally secured his wireless
or he's on vacation overseas
I just cant seem to find his wireless network to hitch....
well, a free ride

and so yeah, I cant go online with my lappie
and I don't quite like using my home PC
(which currently I am using now)
but for now I'll make do with this PC first I guess
minus the pictures...

today I'm kinda in a good mood
but not anymore cause my sis just made me angry
and freaking irritated

but I'll just tell why initially I was in a good mood.....
because its half day work today
and I get to eat superyummy donuts
that are 10 times better than dunkindonuts

i've been working at IRAS for more than a month already
lots of calculation and accounting
my work sometimes drive me mad
that at times I talk about it while sleeping
but its getting better now
i'm starting to like my job I guess
its a temporary one anyway
at least I get to know people's salary
heheheh

ouh and about the donut..
i just came back from jakarta like lastweek
when I reached jakarta, in my mind was just dunkin donuts
cos I'm a donut freak and so far dunkindonuts was the best one I ever tried
but my dad's friend, tante Rita who stayed there told me that there's a better donut shop called 'J.CO'.
I kinda doubt her at first but when I tasted it for myself...
yaAllah, the taste is so heavenly ok!
15 times better than dunkindonuts

when I came back to Singapore,
I really missed the donuts
and at that point of time,
hajar happened to be talking about the hottest donut shop in Singapore
its called Donut Factory
the queue and waiting time is super long
and I experienced it just now
2 HOURS OK!!!!!
but the donut is superyummy lah
must trust me
cause I'm quite fussy with food
and
ehem ehem
I have good taste
hehs

I can still feel the yummy donuts in my tummy
mmmmmmmmm

ok ok
maghrib soon
logging off now

will update more
hehs

weird things????

2007-04-06T10:31:00.000-07:00

ok, so nura actually tagged me to join in this game.
and oh my...its been so long since i last updated.
anyway
this game sounds weirdly cute.
some of u might have played this game before

here goes the rules of the games:
Each player of this game starts out by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting name know you tagged them and to read your blog.

ok, so why i find this game weirdly cute because what you think is weird might be normal to others and vice versa.
and why weird things?
why not good things?i have plenty of them! hahhs!
ok, dont puke yet.
this game is cute too because why 6 people?
haha, i know u cant see the link, me too.
but i still find it cute.
hehs

ok so 6 weird things about me (or at least i think its weird)

1- i do handstand to cure my headaches and it works most of the time
2- i dont suck sweets, i bite or chew them. thats why i like skittles and those chewy candy.
3- i sometimes tend to like younger guys
4- soya bean, bandung and otak2/otah make my head spin
5- i sleep with my legs up on top of a pillow. simply put, my legs need the pillow more than my head does.
6- I always eat messily as in comot lah. you know like after a meal, you might either see some bread crumbs or few grains of rice or mayonaise or whatever bit of food i've eaten at the corner of my mouth. Damn, i really hate it when people tell me about it.

ok so thats it, the other 6 people would be....
ermm...

can I change the rule?
I just thought that whoever feels like doing it, please feel free to do so!
I mean, it kinda kills boredom and its a fun way to do silly things.

gosh, cant wait to update more.
i would have been blabbering nonstop if not for my busy schedule

bleargh

bye all

continuation...

2007-04-06T08:21:00.000-07:00

I am so easily influenced
that time i saw heidi klum advertising katjes sweet

and I actually bought it!

guess what???? sedap doookkk

i even sang 'katjes-yes-yes-yes' after eating it.

this afternoon, i read xiaxue's blog

she was kinda advertising abt this seaweed thingy

and just now, i went to cheers to get it

semangat kan???

it taste ok btw.

and i've been hearing Dan and Young advertising the cornetto royale ice-cream

i want those tooo!!!!

pleassseee...

yaAllah, apelah nak jadi dgn aku ni.

i cant remember how many advertisements have actually influenced me into buying the products. damnnn..

and they are foood! most of them!! arghhhh!!

thinkin abt it, whats the use of having ads all around then?
fuuhh, the power of ads and media.

ok, i'm side-tracking now.

I'm supposed to continue the surprises i've been getting

grrr

anyway, after the short and sweet KL-trip

as usual, its trainings and trainings for me

(duh,i make it sound that bad when actually i skipped lotsa training sessions, hahaha)

but when I gotta know that Singapore Open International c'ship was on

i was paranoid sey!

i was like, "macam mana ni? tak cukup training! boleh ker main?"

winning wasnt the issue, it was actually a matter of whether we were prepared for it or not.

furthermore,singapore was the hosting country and we cant afford to compete unprepared.

as usual, there are always problems before every competition.

its like already becoming a tradition. typical singaporean athlete.

we always have problems relating to schools,exams, ns...those stuffs. so maafan.

and Ayu, one of my partner was having her exam period.

and unfortunately and i dunno why so suey,
one of her papers actually falls on the day of the competition.

after some discussions with our coach,we decided to just go ahead with the competition.

trainings everyday and we had to go for in-camp training.
plus, ayu had to juggled her studies too.

kesian dia untill she got sick. luckily its over now.

i hate in-camp training no matter how good it is.

anyway, those sacrifices didnt really go to waste.

thanks to Allah,

we won silver.

we went through lotsa things and it was all worth it i guess.

SEMANGAT BISKUT RANGGUPP..WOOHOOO...

here goes my biskut rangup gang with our coach.

banyak2 lebah, lebah apa pandai silat?

hhahahah

ok lame...

the artistic ladiessss

and here are my favourite 3 junior boys. (from the left)

The handsome-jerk afiq who make faces when it comes to taking pics with me yet looking oh-so-handsome when taking with other girls,

wan-botak who can be quite cheeky and funny most of the time

and faizul, the , emm, this guy is nice. hah!

just a day after the competition was the official day of my graduation ceremony.

phew, its one after another.

me being me, always so clumsy and seldom get facts right and typically being always late,

i actually reached an hour late. thanks for getting myself mixed up with the timings.

I almost thought that they werent gonna let me graduate.

but hey, there were some others with me. I was actually together with pretty boy ben.

Gosh, he's bloody pretty, flawless skin, damn, how i envy him..

and abg hensem was actually behind me. hahaha!
except he wasnt that hensem on that day.

tulah, saper suroh perm rambut.

anyway, luckily i can still go get my diploma.

afterall, thats what that actually matters.

after 3 good years in RP, i finally officially graduated from RP with a diploma! yeyy

this is me with pretty boy Ben who apprently isnt that photogenic but he's jst too pretty!

yeah i noe, the gown looks so much like the one in harry potter.

if u're wondering who abg hensem is...tthere u go. thats abg hensem. i noe u might not think he is hensem but who cares! he's not that hensem now anyway.

my family with naz's.

phew...

finally....

man, i need another break...

i know i know

2007-03-24T11:03:00.000-07:00

i know i'm such a lazy gundu girl
i havent been updating for so long
although many things have been happening around me
many unexpected things
not that unexpected actually
its neither good nor bad
nor ugly...

well anyway
its just that things have been happening
some are like surprises
that at some point of time,
I have no idea how to react to it

I'll start with when the time I just finished school
that was about 1 and a half month ago
3 wonderful years in RP and I've learnt alot
many many things
from different different people
it has been a great experience for me
there were bittersweet moments
but I really enjoyed the time I spent in RP

If I'm given a choice again to choose which poly I wanna go to
I would still choose RP
(suddenly i feel like being so patriotic, not to my country but to RP, LoL)
I wont say its a good or bad school when people ask
because I feel, to judge it, you will have to experience it yourself
and
surprise surprise...
my younger sis got into RP
Goodluck girl...

and so, when there were no more classes to attend
suddenly i felt like something was missing
where was the hard-to-wake-up moments at 7?
where was the being sardined-with-long-journey bus moments?
where was the crossing the field for shortcut to school?
where was the FMT?
LOL, i'm missing all those although everytime when i was going through it I just cant stop cussing

not that i wanna experience those again,
i'm just sorta miss it
but as always there are always trainings to keep me occupied
and sometimes, I get sick of it too
hussh...

so another surprise I got was
my aunt and uncle asked me and naz to follow them to KL
its not that big of a surprise but it was a really nice break for us
we went during the chinese new year and guess what?
my kind-hearted aunt and uncle took care of eveyrhting
like transportation, accomadation, food, and even shopping!
if only that can happen more often
how i wish....

there were weird crazy stuffs that me and naz did
like a bit of cam whoring
there was once we heard something from the next room
something that just didnt sound right
it was around 1-2 am
me being so kaypoh
i urged naz to follow me go and try listen more clearly
generally 2 different sounds
from the male and female
we stucked our ears to their wall cause we wanna catch every details
and haha
i think they were like u know, making out or something
or maybe more than that
yeah, i think they were doing that 'thing'
anyway they still sound annoying and its disturbing cos i think the walls werent concrete and the walls were like made up of plasters
so much for a 4 star hotel!
we could hear it from our room
so me and naz decided to write them a note and slip it under their door.
so what happened next?
hah! not gonna tell u...

but anyway, we had fun
we took some pictures

when the mood is there....

2007-02-13T10:17:00.000-08:00

this is what happens when the mood for blogging is there

i'll go on and on and on
rattling on even at the slightest detail

so school is over for now
and thinking of what gonna happen in future...
then i started to have butterflies in my stomach
and then feel like shitting
grr

its always at this certain time of the month
where only women have it
we call it pms
to male species, i dunno what they call it
i guess they call it menopause
some guys dont really bother such stuffs although they experience it often
dun get me wrong
i mean with the women around them

ok, so when i have pms
its code red with a capital R
i'm always unreasonable
having scary appetite and weird cravings
drink more than i always do
and sometimes, i dun even notice it
what-a -bummer.

and i think i'm having it now
i'm always starving
just now, went to Banquet with abg zahid and ayim
i ordered chicken chop and rojak
although i was desperately craving for roti john
and being banquet, i dun think they have it there
then went to buy apple juice although i desperately wanted ribena

ok, so i just discovered my new pms sign
'being so fickle'
or maybe i've always been so fickled up

anyway,
am still starving now
mum n dad bough dunkin donuts
and i freakin wanna eat it
but when i think of the weight that i've put on
emmm
i decided to maybe eat it 'later'

gosh, sometimes i just wish i'm skinny
so i can fit into everything
and eat as much as i can
but i hate looking so skinny
see! i'm being so fickle again

yesterday I watched The Matrimony with haj,siti and naz
in the beginning it was a lil scary
i remembered screaming when the ghost appeared
and we were expecting to scream more
hah!
we were dissapointed instead
and the ending was like
leaving us with few conclusions and few emmms
gosh, how i hate this kind of ending
just like the drama Love Contract
luckily the movie was only for 1 and half hours
hajar was saying that if it was more than she wud have fallen asleep
(i suddenly remember falling asleep while watching harry potter, lols)
if i were to rate the movie, wud have given it like
emm
maybe 3/5 at most
cos u know,
i have to give credits for the beautiful high heels
and the funny names like sansan and manman
when i see their hair, it reminds me of my hair
except that mine is way much nicer
hahahahs

talking abt hair
i've had my bob hair for like over a week
so far this has been my shortest
(unless u count the hair length when i was bornt)
and when it was cut, i cried ok!
it feels quite funny to have short hair
like so light liek that
i think i like my new hair

so today is valentines day
i dont really celebrate it
sometime it irks me seeing couples doing stuffs
not that i'm jealous
ok maybe a lil
but...
whatever lah! it just irks me
furthermore its a day where christian thingy triumphing glory over muslims failure day!
or something like dat, not too sure.
dont u think its ridiculous for muslims to celebrate a day like this?

ok so now i feel like shitting

ok, so what now?

2007-02-13T09:05:00.000-08:00

ok, so last monday was officially my last day in RP
but guess i'm coming back again
to collect my transcript,
return wireless card(thank goodness my lappie doesnt need it)
go for graduation party,
and finally the graduation ceremony.

After that, I'm not so sure when I'm coming back there.
(hopefully not lah, unless for some good reasons)

That last day, I had mixed feelings.
was relieved that I've finally finished my studies there.
So happy that I don't have to wake up early again,
take the crowded 168 bus that takes 45mins to 1 hour journey,
freeze in the very cold lab/classroom,
no more fyp,collecting of CE, PP

but at the same time
there was a tinge of sadness.
There are lotsa things I'm gonna miss
like my friends especially the retards
(not that i'm not meeting them anymore but its just different)
i'm gonna miss the retarded time we did in class when we were bored
all those of playing uno, stress, 7 diamonds
all those bitchin
laughing at the most stupidest things
sheesh
i'm gonna miss all that

and not to forget my facs,
those kind ones like Wenyang, Ms Ting, Tek Ming, Benny, Mr Ng
those weird ones like Chris, Alex, Ravi, Daniel, William
those high expectations one like Friso, Eric, York Boon
those ok ones like hongjoo, Ms Mita
those boring ones like Andy, Ms Chia, Deborah, Melvin
those screwed ones like you-know-who you are

and also the food there!
the Ayam Bakar (the only reason i wud come back for)
the milk tea(can only get it at cafe esplanade)
the tortillas(chicken and tuna taste good)
the yoghurt (cookies+strawberry)
the muffins (choc flavour my fav)
the sandwiches (i had to remove the freakin alot mayo all the time)
the waffles (banana choc is my fav)
grrr

ok, so, I'm missing lotsa things there
damn!

I guess I still have to say goodbye to all that
bye to RP and hello to?

its still undecided

I'm applying to all 3 local Unis
kelvin is applying too
and he's one smart ass guy
if all the people applying are like him
then my chances are really super low

I've also applied for some jobs
although I dont feel like working yet
some say I shud work first and study later so i get the experience
well, I don't agree and its a wrong conception!
idiots! stop giving me that kind of advice! I'm Hearing no more of it!
cause I want to study not for the job but for the knowledge.
Anyway, its always been my dream too to go local uni
and i go not for myself
ah well, there are always other reasons!

ok, so I should be doing the short essays for uni entrance
not blogging all night long

screw u blogger!

CheekyPenguin

2007-01-20T07:32:00.000-08:00

for the second time fyp is driving me crazy
but this time is a bit ok
i burnt lesser midnight oils
but still we dont deserve a supervisor who bitches about us
she bitched about us to another student
oh no, not another student but many other students
and God knows she might even bitchd with her colleagues
and God knows again her colleagues might happend to be our evaluators
grr
so what if she's quite pretty and appear nice to us?!
screw her low neck tops and cleavage!

do u watch Big Brother?
if u're staying in the UK maybe u do
just some reality show locking up people in one house
anyway, I dont watch it
but since shilpa shetty is in and there's some racism thingy going on
isnt that interesting?
its all over the news too
hot stuffs i shud say
catch it on youtube if u want
oh ya, btw, shilpa won!
she won the votes of the brits!
hah!
can u believe that?!

I just discovered some new webbies
containing hollywood gossips
whoooo
lol
not that I'm into gossips
but i just love the way they write and diss all those vain celebrities
if u dunno how to fill your time
want some stupid laughs with stupid stuffs
go to www.egotastic.com

and so
i'm not quite right up there
finnishing up report was the hardest
and i suddenly feel like introducing my best companions
my very best companions when i sleep

introducing my penguins and a chicky

(left to right)
a pink chicky mum bought for me
initially she thought its a penguin
lol
next to it is my pink penguin i bought at vivo city with kyoko
second row is a mini blue penguin, a gift from a junior in TS
and next to it is the penguin from Happy Feet!
i took it from my lil bro
hehehe

fyi,
i wanna go to south africa to see the penguins!

ouh and

happy new year to all muslims!

happy awal muharram!

signing off
cheeckypenguin~

hello 2007, bye bye 2006

2007-01-01T02:05:00.000-08:00

time now is 1:40am
date is 1st january 2007

yeah so,
its been an hour and 40 mins since we embrace the new year of 2007
and this is the third post i'm writing about that involves new year
its been almost 3 years since i keep this blogspot of mine
how time flies and i didnt even realise~

anyway,
a big shoutout to everyone,
HELLO 2007, BYE BYE 2006!
weeee~

talking about time,
i suddenly remembered a poem of Khalil Gibran...

he said,
"yesterday is but today's memory and tomorrow is today's dream.....

And let today embrace the past with remembrance and the future with longing. "

LoL,
i love those lines
and i find it very meaningful

its as though telling that what past is past
and what was left was just memories
since we couldnt possibly turn back time
might as well we move on
hold onto a new dream/goals
and then strive towards it.

so, whats your new year resolution?

i'm still thinking mine

how ni???

2006-12-28T09:45:00.000-08:00

ARRRGGGHHHH!

i need a blooody big motivation
to get my blooody big FYP done.
and i have to get it done before new year.

this is frustrating.

if only i can think of fyp as much as i think of food.

bummer.

i just had my selection.

good news is, I'm selected again for the upcoming championships. Alhamdulillah, thank God for that.

bad news is, I have to fly off to vietnam for the overseas trial before the actual championship.

i know its not exactly bad news but the dates are from 14 to 19. freaking 6 days. and its in 2 weeks time.

18th will be my FYP submission day.
nice....

I dont wanna go
naz will kill me if she hears this
unless we can finish everything before new year
of which i doubt we can.

if i tell coach i cant go
he'll definitely ask for the reasons
then he'll definitely says, "everything can be settled, i'll just talk to your Dean or whatsoever"

think so easy meh?
my school is a freaking heck care school
they won't even bother if u come for class or not
they just follow everything by the book.
absent from class more than 5 times than out u go
or at least receive a warning letter then bye bye.

is coach gonna do fyp for me?
i've sacrificed school for silat couple of times
and its worrying
especially when my GPA dropped from 3.3 to 3.2
its a lot ok
i'm worried it might drop again
arghhhh

the upcoming championships are important to me too

having both school and silat equally important.
what should i do?
what should i do?

fid, takyah lah balek kelate

2006-12-27T10:06:00.000-08:00

I have this one cousin of mine
he is 2 years younger than I am
we all call him Fid

when we were younger,
we played together
it was fun playing together
of course there werent just the two of us
i have a lot of cousins and to this date i've lost count of them
but its around 40 I guess
(thats just on my mum's side and on my dad's,i think about 30 something)
nevertheless, we're still close and our bond is still as strong

last time,
on weekends, our uncle would bring us to macritchie reservoir
(i cant remember what the hell we did there)
on certain ocassions we would just sing happily
(my singing wasnt terrible back then and all we sang were sentimental songs, haha)
and sometimes, we would play badminton together
(we would always start cussing each other when we're not happy)

and so this cousin of mine,
i don't really like him
(thats when we were younger)
if he cant get his way, he will start to bite
(he's not friendly as you can see cause he bites)

there was one time, he tried to get something from me
but i didnt let him
and guess what?
yes, he bit me
he freaking bit me on my arm untill i bleed
i still have the scar till now
although its just a tiny scar like the size of singapore in the map,
and because of that,
i dont think i'll ever forget him for life!
hmph!

soon later after that
he was gone
his parents got divorced
and his mum took him back to kelantan
situated at the far end of malaysia

back then, i thought it was only for a short while
when i started to missed him
i got to know that his parents made an agreement that
only when he is 18, he can then come to singapore

we then started to get used to him not being here
and 10 years later
year 2006
we meet him again
he still look the same
just a lil taller
and if there's something that is different,
that would have to be his voice *rolls*

he is now a fine young man
with good voice
and definitely good sense of humour
same frequency as i am i should say
and he's friendly now, cos he doesnt bite anymore

when we start smsing each other
just like last time
we wont want to admit defeat
so we keep on dissing each other
(in a good way i mean)
untill one of us finally give up

its nice to have him back here again
but not for long
he is going back this friday
and we're gonna miss him again
booo hoooo hoooo

thats fid climbing a coconut tree about 10m tall after drafon boating session.

Gosh where did his strength come from sey?.

bagos jugak dok kelate, leh pandai panjat pokok kelape, dapat jugak air kelape free

huhuhu

rain, rain

2006-12-26T05:51:00.000-08:00

rain rain
go away
come again another day
little children want to play

i still remember thats what we sang when we were younger
chanting those when the rain comes

strange, up till now
i still love the rain
i didnt want it to go away

never mind i cant play,
i can watch the box
i can go online
i can surf and chat
i can read
i can blog

its even nice to sleep when its raining outside
hear the sound of rain splattering onto the ground
feel the cool breeze
and the smell of rain....wheeww..nice

the thing is,
there are people all around hoping for the rain to go away
not because they want to play
but because of what the rain has caused them
its been raining non-stop here from last night
and its expected to rain till tomorrow

because of the monsoon,
it brings about heavy rain
some countries are even experiencing flood
and i pity them
and they're just our neighbours
what is going to happen to their home?
what is going to happen to them?

i wonder,
why is it when its reaching the end of the year
disasters started to strike?

nevertheless,
Hanya Allah sahaja yang maha mengetahui

19 december 2006

2006-12-19T05:36:00.000-08:00

this date, I don't wish to forget

its a friend's birthday
he's one of those whose among the first to wish me on ma b'day
he's one of those who dun get presents during his b'day
he's one of those whose friends never remember his b'day

one of his friends is me
i actually forgotten
truly sorry
i promise its not gonna happen again

Dear Saiful, Happy Birthday...

rainbows and sunshines after the rain

2006-12-19T04:51:00.000-08:00

nice + sweet

after the things that have been happenning around me
i was so looking forward to this

short break
books and more books
sun basking
a lil road trip ~

road to penang - jembatan penang

the man behind the wheels

greens and more greens

subh

kids - Batu Feringgi, Penang

manhunt of the year

ready, set, GO! - dragonboat race, battle of the currents

solatlah kamu sebelum kamu disolatkan- @floating mosque, penang

rainbow after the rain

cutie firah with kitty ginger

no comments- whew- times square, KL

littlest things

2006-12-19T04:17:00.000-08:00

to a certain someone
u were once special
now,
im not sure

Dreams, Dreams Of when we had just started things
Dreams of me and you
It seems, It seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you feel the same way too

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That the things remind me of you

Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if for only one weekend
So come on,
Tell me
Is this the end?

neverending horizon

2006-12-07T07:25:00.000-08:00

can you believe it?
i just stared a good 20 minutes at my lappie screen thinking what to write
(ok i just lied, it was barely 10 mins)

I've just been through of something I would call
'a bad rough patch of life'
which I've told about it in the post before this.
it might not be as bad as you think
but so far, that was the hugest impact i've ever experienced

I've never been this scared before
I've never been this stressed out before
I've never been this insecured before
I've never been this worried before

but of course I believe all this happened for a reason
and Alhamdulillah I've begin to realise things

I'm so glad and grateful for having such a wonderful family
who completely understand what I've just went through
who were there when I need them the most
their utmost care and concern really touched me
especially my mother
I love them so much

and of course my friends too
i'm glad to have wonderful friends too
especially the retards
*hehe*
you all have been so incredibly sweet.

I won't say I've fully recovered
but I'm getting better
Alhamdulillah for that.

I still feel a lil bit scared and uneasy at times
especially at night
strange when last time I love the night yet now I'm sorta terrified of it
I still can't stand being alone
and I still have to sleep with my mother *blush*
and occassionally I still cry whenever 'that' feeling starts to creep in
mum just kept saying, "its mental, mental..."
hah!
ok,ok, its always mind over matter...

I never dare to think so much about the future nowadays
the future kinda freaks me out
and I'm trying to take things easy
instead of stressing myself
cause stress, as I was told, is the cause of many illness
I don't want to be sick
so goodie, I'm getting better
after that incident, my sickness actually slowly went away

my aunt also told me that
'STRESS' shouldnt exist in any muslim's dictionary
because all our organs have their limitations
if we use over the limit, stress is what we get

I'm sort of trying to bear that in mind
and I hope that those who read this will too

I've sort of realise things
I asked mum why all this happened to me
I still remember Allah
and do what we are told to do
mum said, perhaps there are things that I didnt realise
so then onwards, I stared to ponder upon the things I've done

like I've said,
I'm realising things.
I've never been grateful then ever
even at the most littlest things.

I guess I'm ok now
my appetite has come back
and I tell u its disguting
I've been eating a lot
much more than before
but heck care
I don't quite like the idea of girls eating little
because they have to watch their diet and lose weight
to me, you eat hard and if you want to maintain
then u simply exercise hard.
(not that I practise what I preach..bleargh)

and my horrendous laughter has come back too
I've started to laugh a ot like last time.

and I simply love it when its raining outside
i'm inside either watching the box
or become obsessed with my book
while listening to lily allen's
hehe
just like last time

I love it too when I turn to the Quran more often than before
whenever I fell uneasy
it actually makes me feel better.
(why didnt I think of this before this?)

happy occasions are coming in too
my cuzzie is getting married this saturday
and i might be going for a short vacation with my family
this is so bloody nice.

I could never ask for more.
thank you all for being there for me.
gee

i guess I'll have to stop pinning for those who never intended to be there for me

a story to tell...

2006-11-27T08:47:00.000-08:00

its been a long time since I last update
and now I have a story to tell
its about a young girl
and the girl is me

Eid celebration was nice
only for few days
caught a cold
there came the coughing
there came the running nose
there came the difficulty in breathing
and made me such a weakling

at times when I find it hard to breathe
i started thinking
why cant I breathe properly?
am I gonna die soon?
the thought come and go
everything was still normal
but occasionally, I thought about dying

it went on for 2 weeks

the thought of dying became stronger
everywhere I went, I thought, could this be my last location?
everyone I talked to, I thought, could this be my last conversation?
the thought never goes away, on the other hand, it became really bad
I felt stressed out and needed someone to talk to
but havent got the courage to do so

how can I just come up to people and say..
"I dunno why but I think I'm dying soon"

I surpressed that thought for quite some time
and because of that, I got gastric
I lost my appetite
i put on a false front
and try to act normal as much as i can
although I succeeded, it didnt get any better

it got from bad to worse
there were times when I'm too scared of being alone
i tried to keep myself busy whenever I can
but never have the mood to do practically anything

there were also times where I'm scared of going to bed
I was scared that If I sleep, I might never wake up
and those times, I ended up not sleeping the whole night
and slept during the day because I surrendered to fatigue
and because people around me were awake

there was an occasion where I suddenly blurted it out to Naz
i thought I might felt better after that
but I didnt
Naz just said she dunno
that actually made me worrier

so I kept it in me again
and it builds up as time goes by

I became sensitive at my surroundings
I cant see funeral
I cant hear the word death or die
and I can't listen to the story of those who have died

I felt like crying most of the time
but I just cant
I didnt know why

yes I'm afraid of death
but I just cant stand the thought of grief my loved ones gonna have
I don't want them to be sad
because I have few of my loved one who have passed away
my aunt,
my granny,
my cuzzin.
the feeling was terrible that I dont wish to experience it again
Ive been through it and I dont want my loved ones to feel that way when I'm gone
and its sad to think that I'm leaving them
the feeling is not like I'm going away for a trip or something
its just different

untill came yesterday,
i had a very bad thump feeling inside me
same thought
when I reached home, i log on the internet
and pluck my courage to actually google out the signs before death
I was terrified after reading it
not because its true
but because i kept thinking of the grief
and whether my a'mal is enough for the hereafter.

I dashed out to the living room
drag mum who was watching a Bond film to my room
hug her and cried really hard
i finally brokedown
and told her everything
because if not, i'm gonna
explode or implode at least

all those crying felt really good
I actually felt better after crying and talking to mum
she gave me her pieces
and after that, it felt like something heavy has just been lifted off my chest

soon after, my whole family knows
and I told some of my friends

it actually felt good to let it out
and share your feelings

mum told me I shouldnt be terrified of death
instead I should be prepared for it
even if I were to die later, tomorrow or any other day ie; anytime

all those pessimistic thinking have started to reduce after that
I actually had a good sleep
just that now and then
I cry just thinking about it
everytime I wake up from sleep
I thank Allah for everything
for being able to live another day
and to be given a chance to use it as it should

I'm now trying to face it bravely
so instead of thinking I might die soon,
I switch it thinking I might live a long time
except, I made use of my day as though I'm gonna die tomorrow.

Thats the story I've been wanting to tell
and only now the story's been told

Oh Allah, please give me the strength to face eveything.

just dropping by...

2006-11-17T14:29:00.000-08:00

hahahah

i havent been updating
too busy
and now I'm dropping by just to say

DAMN!!! EDISON MAIN KAYU TIGAAAAA!!!

I'LL KILL YOU VINCY!

and so, I've decided to like Oliver Goodwill~

oh ya, i'm getting a lil tired of 'smile'
thinking of putting another song

currently i like the song 'you'll be safe here' by rivermaya
gosh, those boys really got da talent~

once eid is over, i'll post about it

have you all missed me?

hahahah

vanity

2006-10-30T02:05:00.000-08:00

why are some people just so vain?
why cant we escape from being vain?

why some women still wear high heels although at the end of the day their feet will hurt?
why some people wear contact lens when they are actually bad to your eyes?
why some people wear pointed shoes when at the end of the day, they will have blood clot in their toenails?
why some people straighten their hair when they have nice curly hair?
why some people curl their hair when they have nice straight hair?
why some people this when its that?
why some people that when its this?

why? why? why?

why didnt I go jalan raya when I have the oppurtunity to do so?
why i'm still awake when I'm really sick and its freakin 2 am?
why am I blogging when I have so many things to do?

sighs
sighs to exam,
sighs to fyp,
sighs to history,
sighs to being sick....

why do I have many whys?

settle down

2006-10-26T09:16:00.000-07:00

act cute + emo

2 espressions of mine when having long rides to Malaysia
first espression is the trnya be funny kinda thing plus acting cute
second step emo lah tu konon, maklumlah, dah boring

actually there are more espressions
but I'm not gonna make a fool of myself any further
and appear lot more vainer

naz turned 20 today
me, siti and naz,
we planned to wear the dress we bought at jusco
its the same dress but different colours
hahaha
it was funny i think
some say we're wearing batik *wth*
some was singing hari raya song to us *rolls*
some call siti 'makcik' *haha*
some group of people gave us the 'look' in the canteen
hahahaha
funny meh?
i thought we looked just nice...

hah, maybe it wasnt that really a good idea
but we love our dress
hehes

aper tengok tu?

sigh sigh
strangely, I've been having this kinda thoughts lately...

sometimes, i just feel like
I wanna settle down
I'm just too tired from studying and trying hard to get good grades
I'm just too worried about working life
I'm just too tired of waiting for edison
(ok just kiddin there)

I wanna settle down,
goyang kaki,
have children and educate them,
and be a good homemaker or whatever lah
as long as it involves staying at home
tired la

so, is there anyone willing to marry me?
come my house ok
i'll marry you right away

mengucap panjang lah mak aku kalau tau ni sumer
mampos aku
haha
aku memain jer
tapi ader yang betol jugak
korang takkanlah tanak kawin kan?

Eidul Fitri

2006-10-23T09:10:00.000-07:00

Allahu Akbar Allahu Akbar Allahu Akbar
Laa ilaahaillaAllahu waAllahu Akbar
Allahu Akbar walillahilhamd

Eidul Fitri is just tomorrow!

ya Allah! I'm so excited.

I love Eid's celebration.
There's always lotsa stuffs to prepare.
So hectic, tiring, exciting, but at the end of the day
we always enjoy it!

like that time me and siti and naz and hajar went to jusco to look for Eid's stuffs
it was really fun

Its quite sad actually that Ramadhan is over for this year
I hope Allah accepts all the ibadah I've done for this month
amiiin.

Eidul fitri is a time to ask for forgiveness from our friends and family
in and out

and guess what,
I just knew that its a cultural, tradition thingy to ask for forgiveness during Eid
and also all those house visiting
lol
but since it a good thing, I guess it should be preserved and to be carried on
its just that
I thought that, we shouldnt only ask for forgiveness at a specific time
and only wait till Eid comes then we'll do our house visiting
what if we're not given that oppurtunity?

but anyway,
what I love most about eid is the FOOOOOD!
hah! I'm such a glutton! always thinking of food
cant help it, sorry
lol

as always, mama will always do all the cooking
I'll be at the side just helping
you know, like doing the cutting and looking and smelling

yummylicious rendang,seronding, ayam masak merah, sambal goreng pengantin,lauk hati and ketupat!! sedapnyeer...

I wonder, when will I be able to cook as well as her?

well, i might not be good at cooking
but at least i can arrange flowers quite well

anyway,
kepada kengkawanku dan keluargaku yang tercintak
sempena hari yang mulia ini
ku inging sekali menyusun sepuluh jari
mohon maaf zahir batin
kalau ader salah dan silap ker
manerlah tau kan...

Taqabbalallahu minna wa minkum.
Minal 'Aidil wal faiizin wal makbulin.

post-b'day

2006-10-22T02:33:00.000-07:00

b'day week over
it was a nice one
but I did something bad on my b'day

you know....
like....

skipping class
hahahaha
sssshhhh

and i made the rest skipped class as well
lol
i love all u retards!
u guyz rawkzz

well, who would wanna spend a b'day in class?
and furthermore, its Business Continuity Technology
can you imagine how boring its gonna be?

i wanna say more
but
i feel that

'no words are needed, just pictures'

hahahaha

heard that somewhere?
lol

Thanks people for the great day!

i really had fun and thanks for everything!

I love u all!!

twenty

2006-10-17T00:05:00.000-07:00

right

i just turned 20 about five minutes ago
i dont like being 20
i dont like getting older

guess i dont have a choice

but...
i've got my high heels
(ok,not so high)
i've got my bronzer/blusher
and I've got myself a dress

b'day treat for myself I guess
ouh! and surprisingly,
dad got me back my hard disk
whoa....

and

last saturday, went to JUSCO jb with
hajar,siti and naz
it was hell lot of fun
and CRAZIEE
we cant stop our laughing gas

and yeah,
tomorrow
as in today
going out with the retards again
i'll be updating about it soon!
yoyoyoyo

for now,I'm gonna make a call
ciaooo

sexy arent they? hahahahahaha

well, almost maybe

yes, thats my heels....

GAWAT! GAWAT!

2006-10-13T15:33:00.000-07:00

"GAWAT! GAWAT!"

gimana nih?

lol, thats what the indos say when in trouble

I'm not in trouble
just in a panic mode

today is the last day for me to decide
whether I wanna get back my harddisk

damn
i really want it back
dad just wouldnt lend me the money
and even told me to forget about it

argh!
what should I do?

unless dad's gonna lend me the money
i'm not gettin it back
and 90% he's not lending it to me
rite...

fine
my lappie is going to suffer from permanent amnesia

anyway,
why isnt there any Eid card in english?

hah!
sorry that was random.

i've been looking high and low for an english Eid card
and there dont seem to be any over here
its even hard to look for any eid card over here to begin with

grr
things aint going my way

except the fact that the cake and brownies that me and sis baked
(and with the help of my bro)
turned out to be exceptionally good
yeah!
haha!
I'm turning into a domestic goddess!
(mum said I'm hopeless in other areas of domestic stuffs except for baking)
but still, its a compliment isnt it?
and, I just got a recipe book on cookies and cakes
baking is such a fun thing to do
-for now
hehs

and guess what?!
I'm on for more shopping
I need shoes! yes, shoes

no no
i need heels, yes heels
and bag maybe
ouh, and bronzer
(gosh, will i look tanner with bronzer? cos i'm tanned enough already)

the thing about bronzer is that
its a cool stuff
i dont really need it
but thats what the models in the mags use
and they look fabulous
siti retard is planning to get it too
we're into it together
hee

and I also want a kebaya
oh my! looking at the stuffs that I want
I look so vain
but who cares!
I'm getting it today!

and I mean it

bye bye,
I'm going shopping

sigh,
if only money can rain on me...

quiz

2006-10-10T10:08:00.000-07:00

according to nura
if I've got nothing to do
perhaps I could do this quizzie

Apparently I've got nothing better to do
and maybe I could do with some quizzies

ok I just lied
I just borrowed 3 Jane Green books from the library
and now ought to be reading it
at least its always better than doing quiz
but then again
I wanna post an entry
just that I havent got any idea what to write about

ok, I just lied again

grr, its fasting month and I keep lying
this is bad, really bad

actually I had something on my mind to write about
and with PICTURES!!
apparently, I still havent uploaded the pics yet
guess I'll have to wait till I'm a little less lazy

here goes the quizzie/questionaires
or whatever u wanna call it
took it from nura's blog
and feel free to do then post it up
especially when you dunno what to write about in your blog
its always better than a dormant blog

and.....

1. Single,taken or crushing??
ans: unmarried, heart stolen and crushing to bitz and pieces
heeeee
(dun get me wrong, its nothing negative)

2. Are u happy with ur life now?
ans: Alhamdulillah, I am.

3. When you meet the right person, will you fall with him/her fast?
ans: dont think so but eventually I will still fall for him at the end of the day, so it doesnt really matter, fast or slow.

.4. Have you had your heart broken?
ans: who doesnt?

5. Do you believe there are circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?
ans: that really depends but I'm against it anyway
(i'm so fickle-minded)

6. Would you talk to someone back if he/she cheats on you?
ans: I'll just kick his/her ass and simply let my legs do the talking.
hahaha

7. Have you talk to another person about marriage before?
ans: hahahha, yes and with a lot of people. I just cant wait to get married and shake my legs. hahahahahha

.8. Do you want children?
ans: definitely

9. How many?
ans: just enough for a football team, hmm, maybe thats a little too many. How about enough for a regu team or ganda team will do cos tunggal just isnt enough. hehe

10. Would you consider adoption?
ans: depends on the situation

11. If someone likes you right now, what do you think to let you know his/her feelings?
ans: tell me please and dont forget to say I'm smart, hot and sexy.
hahahahha

12. Do you enjoy getting into relationships?
ans: lol, I'm terrified of it but I'm not saying I'm not enjoying it. so yeah...

14. Do you believe in love at first sight?
ans: not untill I've experienced it myself

15. Are you romantic?
ans: romantic is my middle name....
or at least I love romantic comedies.
heeee

16. Do you believe you can change someone?
ans: change what? sometimes i can change someone's mind. Does that count?

17. If you could marry somewhere, where would it be?
ans: Home Garden (if I ever have any)

19. Do you have feelings for someone right now?
ans: YES
*blushin*

20. Have you ever wish you could have someone but you messed it up?
ans: how I wish I could have edison but never even had the oppurtunity to even mess it up, so how?

21. Have you broken a heart?
ans: I hope I havent broke any

22. One day if your bestfriend fall in love with he/she that you are deeply in love with. What would you do?
ans: either I fight it out with her (best woman wins, hehe) or change her mind and make her fall for someone else or I go and love someone else.

23. Are you missing someone right now?
ans: yeah. Loads of misses.

and so, I have to ask 5 friends to do this survey on their blog and Write down their names below.

The 5 pple are:
you1
you1
you3
you4
you5

=)

hazy october

2006-10-08T09:19:00.000-07:00

reading my tagieees just sometimes make me laugh
with all those comments i find amusing
and because of my previous post 'amnesia'
i've received few comments and here goes my repliesss....

to jannnah - my lappie is a male, dont ask me why cos i dunno why but i just like the thought of having my lappie to be a male. you know... opposite attracts, or whatever....

to naz - i treat people, animal and things (especially my belongings) equally. I'm a kind-spirited soul and yes, did I answer your doubts? no? anyway, a person is a person and a lappie is a lappie. period. surely i'm not that complicated, am I?

to icha - my lappie has amnesia because it, sorry, i mean he, just got a new harddisk and his old memories lost. thanks for disturbin anyway~

to hajar - suspense eh dok? hahaha. ko ingat saper yg ader amnesia?

-------

i love october
cos its a month of many birthdays
of whom they are my loved and closed ones

1st oct - my baobei chuanyi's b'day
(its been so long since we last chat, hang around,eat good food and talk about HK and edd's stuffs, how i missed you and there's a lot for us to catch up on)

2nd oct- ira's b'day
(my most good friend cum long-distance-cuzzie, what the hell have u been up to? i cant seem to get through you and I miss u loadddzzzz)

7th oct - edison chen's b'day
(am a die hard fan cum lover of edd for over 6 years olredi and still countin. Make sure u peeps go and watch his upcoming movie 'The Grudge" this friday the 13th ok)

8th oct - papa's b'day
(he's 48 already i guess! Papa! biler nak ader cucu? hahahaha)

9th oct - mama's b'day
(yes, my mum's b'day is just right a day after dad's. add their birthday up and u get mine,=) hee )

8+9= 17th oct
and its MY BIRTHDAY. hahaha. why am i blushing suddenly? oh yes... cos i was thinking of getting prezziess from u people...hahahahha. *so thickskinned, please excuse me for that*

26th oct - naz's b'day
(naz,did u even realise that we're gonna be 20 soon? ahhh! biler ko nak kawin?)

we're celebrating eid on the 24th
geee....
multiple celebrations

thats why i love october
and would like to take this opputurnity to wish all october babies a very nice birthday!
and here's a little something about all u october babies...

OCTOBER - Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends........... Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.

*cough* i sort of agree the last sentence - 'smart, hot and sexy'
hahahahaha

anyway, much as i love october,
unfortunately
we've been having haze here
very unhealthy atmosphere
and yesterday the PSI was 150!
can u believe that!
if its gonna get worser
we're gonna have nurses wearing mask all over singapore

haze also reminds me of edd's previous album
entitled "HAZY"
why of all hazy?
*rolls*
do u have any idea how much we all hate the haze?!

here's pics of iftar with retards
love em'
love their retardness
initially we planned to go arab street kampong glam
but went to town instead and had Nasi Ayam Penyet

dear retards, i have to say this
the nasi ayam penyet wasnt that great
but i still enjoyed it and tried not to be fussy for once
i felt the warmth especially with those extremely spicy sambal belachan!
the happy soda was nice anyway
and we should have the 'topless eight' from swenson's again!
and yes, play UNO barbie pleaseeeee
i missed blackie, afro, jembu, abg 'step hensem', si ciner and all the other bitches.

ni kenaper pulak? nak nangis ker sembelit?

intoducing ..... "cik lehs wannane"!!!! bukan main nura, samer skali, ader bakat betol

step cute lah pulak, lagi lagi si siti ni......

i told you.... they are the retarded oness, not me =)

nasi ayam penyet dengan sambal pedas belachan dengan soda gembira dengan tahu goreng dengan tempe goreng dengan kobes keras dgn kangkung rebos dengan keropok dan macam2 lagi
maklumlah, dah kenyang so all smiles!

amnesia

2006-10-04T08:59:00.000-07:00

gosh! he has amnesia!

what would you do
or
how would you feel

if someone close to you have amnesia?
someone you really really love and treasure

that someone suddenly has no recollection of any memories
not even a single thing

and every memories about you and that someone were gone
all the times spent together
the thick and thin that both of you have been through
all the secrets shared
all those wonderful memories
those problems u've turned to
those shoulders you cry on
the best entertainment you ever got from someone
the help you sought for at other than Allah
the one that makes your life easier
accompany you when u're lonely
that someone who connects you to people
and doesnt mind working hard for you
doing multiple task without any complain
and you only know how to take advantage of that someone

and at split second
that someone met with a sudden accident of mental breakdown
all because of you,
went into coma for few days
and when he/she wakes up
he/she has amnesia

that someone suddenly became a stranger to you
no recollection of memories of you
you dont feel like talking to that person anymore
you dont even wanna meet that person if you can
but you cant, cos you just cant abandon him/her
and you still need that person...

but...

deep inside you miss the old of that someone
you want to go back to the times you spent together
you promise not to take advantage of the person anymore
not anymore as long as that person regain his/her memories

now tell me,
what would you do
and how would you feel?

I'm experiencing it right now
and feeling rather devastated about it

except that someone......

is actually

my

lappie.

ok, I know you might think its not the same.
but I cant help thinking my lappie has amnesia
and might
i say MIGHT
only regain his memories after a very expensive surgery

and it depends on me
is it worth it?
or should I just let those memories go and create new ones?

sigh

i'm sick of putting a strong front
you dont know how much I miss you darling...

when in Rome....

2006-09-30T10:34:00.000-07:00

I have a new dream
-inspired by Gemma Townley

my new dream is to go to Rome

and over there...
I wish to ride a vespa
wearing a beautiful dress
and stilettos
and oversized sunglasses
and a flowery scarf

just like the book "when in Rome.."

then I'll roam the city of Rome
admire the culture (if there's any)
and of course the artifacts
appreciate the surrounding arts
go to the museum

and maybe drop by all the designer boutiques there

I heard thats where most well known designers come from
and most of the designer boutiques can be found there
(not that I'm gonna buy any, I hope not...) anyway...

naz told me that Rome is a very expensive place
cos they use Euro dollars
(is it the same as pounds and pence? naz doubt so)
and the police uniform are even designed by Armani!

how cool is that!
I really have to go to Rome
ride the vespa
and see the policemen
hah!!

I also heard Rome is a very romantic place
Rome-romantic..
hmmm...
i guess the word 'romantic' came from 'rome'
Rome is a nice place to have romantic candlelit dinner
hehehehe,
just what I like....

*SLAP*SLAP*
i better stop this fantasy and come back to reality
accept the fact that my lappie just crashed
had to change the hard disk
and lost all data
and the only way to get back all data
is to go to a recovery point centre
and cost me a bomb
nice~

and
in addition to all that,
I just had to reformat my home pc
lost data in C drive a
and my audio codec is missing

sigh
the test of Ramadhan....

"InnAllaha maa'ss soobirriin"

Anticipating Ramadhan

2006-09-23T14:43:00.000-07:00

Salaaam to all

enough of being sick of other people
enough of being mad at some stupid bloke
enough of having doubtful feelings
enough of anything thats just so sicko
enough is enough
I'm not entertaining any of that anymore

I guess now there's always a new thing to look forward to each day
something at least very meaningful
although it can be the same everyday for the whole month
Ramadhan...

I love Ramadhan
the ninth month of the Islamic Calendar
a very blessed blessed month to all the Muslims

lemme just ask something before I start to talk again...

Do you know what is man's greatest enemy?

its not their business rival
its not someone who kills their loved ones
its not that someone who cheats on them
its not some alien or monster trying to destroy the world
its not really Syaitan who swore to Allah to bring us to hell with him

its 'Human Temptations' or Hawa Nafsu
their own temptations, their own hawa nafsu
towards
wealth
sex
food
and etc
or simply put, the luxury of life

Alhamdulillah, thank God for that we have Ramadhan
a month to challenge and put us all to test
and curb all the wonderful temptations of life,
a time of inner reflection
learning of self control
coming closer to Allah
a time of intensive worship
reading of the Quran
puryfying one's behaviour
doing good deeds
and the list goes on an on

its not that we cant do all those in any other days
in fact we have to do in any other days
just that its different for Ramadhan
cos its just a blessed month
a very rewarding month
a month Muslims around the world should grab the oppurtunity
especially on 'Lailatul Qadar'
a night better than a 1000 months.

For Muslims,
Ramadan is an opportunity to gain by giving up,
to prosper by going without and
to grow stronger by enduring weakness.

if you look at it,
by fasting
we're actually experiencing hunger
so that we can realise how fortunate we are
and develop sympathy for those who are less fortunate
become more appreciative of Allah's bounties
its good for the health
its puts your stomach to rest
and provides a break in the cycle of rigid habits or overindulgence

Subhanallah
Allah is so wise

InsyaAllah
I'll make the most of this Ramadhan
and hope you muslims will make the most out of it too

To Muslims around the world,
Ramadhan Mubarak to all

happy sahuring, happy fasting, happy iftaring and happy ibadating

wish you all the best

just remember
Ramadhan is a month of
see no evil
speak no evil
hear no evil
think no evil
and do no evil

hehe
and of cos more to that lah

sigh,
i can never make my post shorter
hahahh

anyway,
i'll end this post with another
Salaaam

Fuming with Anger ---- once again

2006-09-21T11:14:00.000-07:00

I'm just getting over with my anger towards my school
and now
a stupid chinese bloke made me real mad just now
and I'm saying this again
I really hope the world is reading this

THAT STUPID CHINESE BLOKE HAS NO BRAINS AT ALL

ah, maybe pig brain in his freakin head
guess, even pigs cud be smarter than him

before u continue reading,
think twice,
its a freaking long post
full of rattlings
I'm doing this because I was just angry
not because I want all of u to read it

but feel free to read anyway
and share my woes
ahaha
(i know 'woes' is not the correct word but who cares)

anyway,
know what that STUPID BLOKE did?
he parked his lorry infront of my dad's car
that the car cud not even go out from the parking lot
when there were spaces for him to park a lil behind
so as not to block my dad's car
so damn inconsiderate

I'm sure you will agree with me if I say he has no BRAINS

and we waited maybe more than half-an-hour for him to come back to his lorry

I was so mad
but decided to keep my cool
but guess what?
no point being cool
cos he gave us that stucked up look

mum told me to ask him why he parked that way
and I asked him nicely OK, I repeat, NICELY
I said "why did you park your lorry that way?"
and guess what he answered?
he shouted, yelled and screamed at me
at the same time being mad saying
"I'm coming what! you cannot wait ar? I just tapao my food only?"
-yah rite, nobody takes 30 mins to get one takeaway food-

anyway, thats not the case
instead of saying sorry and being apologetic
he actually yelled at me as if I was in the wrong
ok, and that time, I swear I can feel my blood rushed up
I cant hold back anymore
and actually said
"why didnt u use your brain, u parked that way and blocked my car when u can actually park a lil bit behind!"

guess I made him even madder
and so I was right
he yelled at me again saying my dad never taught me
I still remember him saying
"YOU SAID I GOT NO BRAIN AH, YOU THINK I LIKE, YOUR FATHER NEVER TEACH YOU AR!"
what the hell?
what has it got to do with my dad teaching me not to say people has no brains

I guess anyone wud say it
am I right to say this?

"YES YOU GOT NO BRAIN!"
that came out from my mouth really loud after being totally pissed

my dad saw the fight between us and told him to move his lorry fast
cos we still need to fetch my sis that was waiting alone at the bustop
but what he did?
he pushed and pulled my dad asking why he never teach his daughter
and yeah, that STUPID BLOKE was referring to SMARTY ASS ME
and luckily, my smarty ass dad said that its true that he has no brain

gosh at that moment i never felt the most urge to kick someones's ass
when I came over to him and scold him back
he actually cussed me ok
some chinese hokkien cussing
"@#$%^&&^%&*()*& BITCH"
hah! I only understand the word bitch
lol

was going to slap him but just snapped his hand
I wanna cuss him back but realised I dunno how to
(my cussing vocab is real bad)
I was thinking wat to cuss him actually
and when I finally got the right word to use
it was a lil bit to late
but i still said "Ass****" under my breath
(not being timid here but its not good to let our parents hear us cussing)

few of my silat friends happened to be there
trying to resolve the situation
sigh,I tot they're gonna help me beat him up
but anyway,
that STUPID BLOKE CUM JERK actually
got the cheek to demand an apology from me for saying that he HAS NO BRAIN

not in a million years
and over my dead body am I going to apologize
sigh
but dad and ma silat peeps told me to
so that we can resolve it fast

damn, I shouldnt have agreed
its the most humiliating thing I ever did this year
and they even made me say it nicely
for once I was being a lil stupid there
but still its not even 1% of that STUPID BLOKE CUM JERK stupidity

we moved off after that
me, my parents, all of us were very pissed
I'm thinking of taking him to court
for slandering me in public
or parking illegally
or whatever I can.

gosh, can I do that?

I'm not that good with how the law works
hmm,
maybe I'll ask Adel

the thing is
I'm a bit scared here
he might send his gang to beat me up or even kill me
lol

its true i know silat
but its always better to be safe than sorry right?

anyway
i'm still gonna lodge a complain
to his workplace
he looks like those who came out from the prison
but he never even freakin cared to repent
this kind of people
dont deserve our yellow ribbon.

what a singaporean?!
the governement effort has gone to waste
so much for teaching 'stupid singaporean' aka STUPID BLOKE to be
courteous and considerate

but anyway
I was like a gangsta just now
hahahahha
a tudung gangsta picking a fight
even my silat peeps were shocked by my never done actions
hahahahhahaha

boy, this post is freakin long
hahah
but it feels good to let it out

100 peratus bahasa melayu

2006-09-20T09:22:00.000-07:00

seperti yang telah dijanjikan
pos yang seterusnya haruslah pos yang mengandungi 100% Bahasa Melayu

walaupun payah rasanya
kerana sekian lama tidak menggunakan bahasa melayu dengan betul
akan aku tetap kotakan janjiku
dan cuba sedaya upaya untuk menulis sesuatu yang menghasilkan manfaat
bagi diri kita sendiri atau sesama kita.

Tujuan aku menulis dengan menggunakan 100% peratus bahasa melayu ini
adalah kerana aku tidak mahu melupakan bahasa ibundaku sendiri
bahasa turun temurun yang telah diturunkan oleh nenek moyang kita
walaupun hari-hari bertuturan bahasa melayu,
sedihnya, ada bahasa asing yang dicampur adukkan dalam perbualan seharian kita
atau kalau tidak itu, melayu 'pasar' yang digunakan.

Semakin hari pula, semakin kurang anak melayu kita
yang tidak mahir dengan bahasa ibundanya sendiri
kadang kala pula, naik meluat rasanya bila seseorang anak melayu itu
sengaja tidak mahu gunakan bahasa melayu dengan alasan
-tidak keren
-tidak biasa
-bahasa kolot
dan lain-lain lagi.

Aku juga, kadangkala meluat dengan diriku sendiri
kerana lebih mengagung-agung kan bahasa lain
sedangkan bahasa ibunda sendiri
masih belom fasih dan mahir aku gunakan
Aduh...sungguh memalukan.

semoga dengan kata-kataku yang sedikit ini
dapat membuka minda kita
dan fikirkan apa yang wajar kita lakukan
agar apa yang telah diturunkan
bukanlah dengan sia-sia

Terus terang ku katakan
amat payah sekali menulis/menaip pos ini
dan jika guru bahasa melayuku membaca
pasti dia akan duduk tertawa dan malu dengan kesalahan
yang telah anak muridnya lakukan semasa menulis/menaip pos ini

hingga disini sajalah
kata-kata ku akan berakhir
sekian
terima kasih kerana membacaa

Bahasa Menunjukkan Bangsa

2006-09-19T09:31:00.000-07:00

the title simply says:
"your language you converse/use indicates your race"
(a very famous malay quote that've been used for ages)

and prolly

the finer you use your language, the more refined you are

well, I dont use that 'fine' language, but I'm always trying to refrain from
vulgarities.

I guess thats good enough.

but anyway,
I've been bloggin in english
(ok, maybe not so good english)
i hope I'm not giving the impression that my race is Caucasian
*ok thats silly when I dont look like one, and I'm not hoping to be one either*
furthermore, a lot of people blog in english
its so called an 'International language' what?!

I love my race
I'm proud of my roots
and hell, I love my language

but nowadays,
I think malays are getting confused over their races
I was initially, and still am

when people say, whats my race?
or "kamu orang apa?"
I said I'm javanese "aku orang jawa"
refusing to admit that I'm a malay thinking I wasnt one
truth is, javanese are malay
(i think, still need to be corrected and assured on this one)

Javanese are people who lives in Java Island
an island in Indonesia
(eg: Jakarta, jogja, surabaya and etc
apparently, those on the west of java are more of "Sundanese")

and Malay are a diverse group of Austronesian peoples inhabiting the Malay archipelago and Malay peninsula in Southeast Asia.

They constitute the dominant ethnic group in Malaysia, Indonesia, Brunei, the Philippines, the Pattani region of Thailand and East Timor, which together with Singapore make up what is called the Malay archipelago.

Outside this area, Malay people inhabit Palau, Guam and the Northern Marianas, most of Madagascar, and the Cham areas of Cambodia, Vietnam, and Hainan Island (the remnants of the Champa kingdom which covered central and southern Vietnam).

source: wikipedia

ah rite,
thinking about it,
I dont live in Java or Indonesia at that
so I cant really be called Javanese
its just my roots
my great great grandparents were Javanese
the javanese language arent exactly language
its a dialect
Javanese arent really a race
its more of an ethnic group

Ya Allah,
am I right to say all that?
I'm so so confused

gosh all this are too confusing for me
but anyway,
we still use the term javanese to describe our own race
maybe because Malay is too generic

so nowadays we have malay identifying themselves as
I'm a Javanese
I'm a Boyanese
I'm a Bugis
I'm a Sundanese
I'm a such and such
anyway, yeah, we might look a lil different from each other
but we're still Malay
we're part of Malay

am I right once again?

but again
its still a good thing to look at where we come from
our origins
our roots
our culture
and so on

personally
i like being known as a javanese
more than a malay
although it doesnt make much difference
except in our physical looks or maybe not
(my friends said I look so typical javanese, lol, and if you wanna know how a javanese girl looks like, then look at me, lolrotf)

sometimes I joke around saying I'm mixed
or 'Kacukan'

well, there's some truth in it
although its a lil ridiculous
my mum's side,
they are boyanese
but recently I gotta know that
my late grandfather (Mama's dad)
is kind of a sailor who came to Bawean Island and lives there
he has this title 'Rama' which apparently Papa said is a Javanese royal title

for all I know, late Grandad, cud have been a javanese
but then a again
he's a 'sailor' and travels from places to places

damn, I cud never know
how I wish he's still alive so I can ask him

but anyway,
I have to say this again
I'm proud to be a Javanese
or Malay *whatever*
I dunno why some javanese/malay here in Singapore
are not proud of their ethnicity

why arent they like the Arabs here in Singapore who are so proud of their ethnicity?
you see, I'm not trying to discriminate anyone from any ethnic groups here
but the Arabs in SINGAPORE are so proud of their ethnicity
and that makes some of them being PROUD (gosh, that really pissed me sometimes)
when most of them cant really speak Arabic
lol
and ironically, some of them speak better malay then the malays here.
just like some malays here speak better arabic then the Arabs here
hahs
I dont know about Arabs in other countries tho
except a few I knew
*cough * cough*
and so far I think they're just amazing people
based on their characters

anyway, why am I even talking about the Arabs?
lol
a lil bit off side track
maybe cause I was sent to an Arabic, Islamic School for 11 years
and had some Singaporean Arabs friends from the same school as well as other Arab Schools
but tell you what
11 years there and ....
my arabic still sucks
hahahaha

my english sucks too
I guess
and my malay
sigh....
although I attained a distinction for my Malay paper
my malay is still hopeless

I'm just lousy with languages

but guess what

my next post is gonna be 100% malay
(phew, thats gonna be tough)
but I'm quite excited about it
its been quite long since I write something decent in Malay
say about 3 years ago?
lol

Akan ku gunakan bahasa ibundaku agar ia menunjukkan bangsaku

cheyba
hahahahaha

anyway, before I end this topic
I just remembered what Papa told me before
I find it rather amusing
and its related to what I was talking about earlier

Papa once asked his late Granny what our (reffering to papa and Gran) race is?
as In "Nenek, kita orang apa?"
and she simply answered
"we are singaporeans lah"
-ifyouknowwhatshemeans-
*faints*
hahaha
lolrotf

MashaAllah
this is such a long post

well, fair enough since I havent been updating for few days already
heeee

Salaaaaamun Alaik

39 winks already then back to 1 again

2006-09-16T02:12:00.000-07:00

somebody
knock me down hard please
and yes, I mean it
make it real hard

or,
should i pop pills instead?

or just bore me to death?

any better suggestions?

eveything doesnt seem to work

from reading Reader's Digest
to listening stupid slow 'lullaby' songs
to drinking milk
to staring at the ceiling the whole night

none of it actually works for me

I've been trying hard to sleep since yesterday
i'm desperate for my 40 winks
cos i'm tired physically and mentally

my brains not functioning properly
and my body running out of energy

still
i cant sleep

this morning i had my first few winks
hmm, say about an hour
and thats like 10 winks
then naz called and wake me up saying she's already on her way to my house to do our stupid project
so had no choice but to get my ass of my bed
and start doing our thing

she left after abt 5 hours
and thought that maybe i could carry on with my remaining 30 winks
and so i gave a shot

there goes my 11th wink, my 12th, my 13th
and tadaaa!
mum woke me up to do Asar with her
its barely 15 mins and I had to wake up again

after that I cant sleep cause my whole body is aching
courtesy from gym again and of course jessica alba
*rolls*
so had a chat with mum
i was talking about my studies
then she went about rattling about religion and her family

when she was done
i just lay on my bed and stare at the ceiling again
cos I'm still shot of about 17 winks
ok, so the first few winks were successful
but guess what?

my sis intan waked me up cos its already maghrib
and I should break my fast
thinking about it
i wud rather sleep than eat

so now, I'm still left with about 10 winks

i cant carry on sleeping cos had to go training
but managed to get another 3 winks in dad's car while on the way home from training
he waked me up when we reached home

how I wish he didnt
cos it was nice to sleep

but anyway, to cut it short and make things simpler
in that day
i only got about 3 out of 24 hours of sleep

the worst thing is that
this sleeping disorder
is chronic

I still havent sleep yet
and its killing me

what went wrong actually?

insecure

2006-09-14T09:37:00.000-07:00

i'm feeling terribly insecure nowadays
terribly insecure

sighs sighs sighs

a lot of things have been giving me all these insecurities

i'm going to have a mental breakdown soon
somebody please call 995

its bad
i hate this feeling
its giving me insomnia
and making me lose appetite

everything is in a mess
its not working

from
personal life
to school stuffs
to silat
and to everything

how come everything just sucks?

especially those faggots lah!

this time Allah is really testing me
and I redha towards whats he's been testing

its just that sometimes, when I'm finally able to sleep
i just dont wish to wake up

i'm exhausted but i'm still holding on and facing it

I just hope that the least people around me that are close to me could kindly do is just to make me feel better and reduce the insecurity in me.

Thats all i asked for.

if u feel for what i'm feeling, dont hesitate to make me feel better cause u're close enough to me to feel for what i'm feeling

yeah, I'm referring to you.

do me this favour please.

"Oh Allah, please give me the strength to face everything and make things right"

I believe eveything is not for nothing
there's a hikmah behind it

SubhanAllah
Alhamdulillah
Allahu Akbar

just right

2006-09-12T12:19:00.000-07:00

teoh sent me 20 award winning photographs
boy, the photographs were amazing

great techniques
perfect angle
accurate contrast
interesting subject
yada yada yada....

here's some of the award winning photographs

all the photographs were just too perfect
well maybe even beyond perfection
and i dont think its being photoshopped at all
(even if it was, its still superb)

or
its just the photography skills and the right camera
and i'm sure that was some hard work that looks easy

trust me,
i learnt a bit abt photography in school
and its tough
u need patience as well as passion

i dont think i have both

but anyway,
of all 20 photographs
only one caught my attention

this is the only photograph...

why?
simply because
this is the only photograph

that doesnt tells a thousand words
instead, it tells few meaningful hearwarming
thoughts and feelings

well,
our opinions and how we think might differ
but I'm quite sure our interpretations
would somehow be similiar

again,
maybe and maybe not
to each of its own

but deep down
i'm sure you want that as much as i want
maybe not now
or maybe it has happened to you
its just,
someday~

p.s:
if you noticed, i use the word 'photograph' instead of 'picture'
because 'photograph' seems more high class than 'picture'
dont you think award winning stuffs deserve to be high class?
so it fits just right

p.s.s: the credits/owner of the photographs is in each photo. If u cant see, i suggest u use a magnifying glass. that might help =)

hikmah

2006-09-12T00:29:00.000-07:00

aku percaya tiada yang sia sia
semuanya ada hikmahnya

SubhanaAllah
Alhamdulillah
Allahu Akbar

wrathful

2006-09-10T10:15:00.000-07:00

just when i thought of chillin from bloggin
i had to come back here again

reason because
i need a place to
holler my anger at

blogger seems to be the safest place
and its a
practical way to vent my frustration as well

well, this post might not be up permanently
because its being done in a fit of anger

just like last time
when a coach annoyed me
not just that, i was totally infuriated at him
so what i did,
i cursed him on my blog
1 long post full or cussing
because i cant do anything else to him
other than cussing

my,
that was really bad
astaghfirullah

but i deleted the post next day

and now,
i'm really mad at my school!

what a 'brilliant' polytechnic

they are so brilliant that they came up with the new condition only after we proposed our FYP proposal?

isnt that such a brilliant thing to do?

we brainstormed the ideas like hell for our proposal
and looking forward to doing it
only to have you people accepted it but forbade us from doing it!

what the hell was that for?

why limit it to only multimedia specialized students?

although my major is in IT Security
multimedia is still my minor what?!

gosh,
the idea of looking through all those stupid proposals again
simply makes me really sick
and having to select 3 of them is a killer
the worst thing is that,
i have to select it by tomorrow!

shouts to shaun!!
we're counting on you to contact that Santosa guy

sheezz
Santaso is so close to Samosa
i love eating samosa
and now i'm hungry
if that santosa is not gonna let us do our project
i'll eat him up
sorry, i mean I'll eat samosa untill i'm full

urghhhhh

eww,
suddenly samosa seems so disgusting~

and looks like this time round,
there's not much cussing
in fact
there might not be any

~~~

"My life has become the punchline for a seriously disturbed joke."

p.s: this post has been moderated by papa so I have no choice but to edit some parts
the edited parts are in 'arial'

p.s.s: well, no matter what, i still love my school tho
RP!!! BANZAI! BANZAI!

those are the words

2006-09-07T11:13:00.000-07:00

"malam tidak akan indah tanpa bintang
bintang tidak akan indah tanpa kegelapan malam"

~~~
those are the words
that came from Ustaz Ade Novli

night and stars
interelated
both aint beautiful without another

no night is beautiful without the shining stars
and no stars are beautiful without the dark night

at first i didnt really get what he was trying to say
but, towards the end of his speech, he said

"tiada pelajaran tanpa pengorbanan"

so he meant
no knowlegde is gained without sacrifice

ok, got it

lol

i thought it meant something else

but anyway, I thought its an exquisite and artistic way to describe
or meant something so wise

well, nothing to be surprised about
cause he's a scholar
someone so learned
au fait at that
with wise words at hand

if it was me,
i would have described it like...
emmm

no dishes is nice without salt
no salt is nice without the dish

or...

no chocolate is nice without hazelnut
no hazelnut is nice without chocolate

or even...

no bubble tea is nice without the pearls
or no pearl is nice without the bubble tea

wow!
i'm like a food scholar!
my food words are so profound!
hahahha

laugh out loud and multiple sighs

2006-09-06T14:05:00.000-07:00

There are things we don't want to happen
but have to accept,

things we don't want to know
but have to learn,

and people we can't live without,
but have to let go.

----

its almost 2 weeks since i lost my fone
the day i lost it
was like the day someone close to me died
(i know its a bit exaggerating, but i was really sad ok)

my fone was the most closest gadget to me

its the thing i cant leave home without
its the thing thats always beside me when i sleep
its the thing that wakes me up
its the thing that i check every few minutes
its the thing that snaps beautiful moments at the least expected times
its the thing that store the tunes and rhythms i like
its the thing that makes me stay connected most of the time
its the thing that records voices and sounds i treasured
its the thing that store my precious text messages

and that bloody idiotic pickpokecteer had to pickpocket it
sigh
i should have been more careful lah

sigh
the KL trip would have been perfect then
where we only
shop,eat,sleep and laugh

with the perfect companies
at the most perfect times

and discover something which we ourselves didnt realise it

They said I'm terribly fussy
can u believe that?

sigh maybe I am
so good luck to all

my line is back
just when i'm getting used to life without my fone

so peeps
i'm using the same number again
but the number without the same fone
is totally strange~

shop and shop and shop

the four of us in the cinema watching Snakes on the plane...ewww...grosss

more donuts please......

kenny rogers is good without their cheesy but soggy macaroni, bland muffin, weird taste mashed potato, too much herbs pasta and a lil bit too sour coleslaw.

streets of KL

engagement = commitment???

2006-09-05T09:55:00.000-07:00

does engagement means commitment?

if u're engaged to someone, meaning, you're commited to someone?

what is commitment to you?

sigh,
isnt engagement a hassle?
no matter what
you cant really do what 'married' couples can
-ifyouknowwhatimean-

and I tell u, the malays do engagement in such a troublesome way
i'm sure some (malay) still dont know well,
i just got to know this year on how malay engagement is being done
from 2 of my cuzzies and one from my friend/classmate

apparently, i was told that
that wasnt the original traditional way of a malay engagement
omg, so its worser than that lah?

well, so far we missed out the reciting of the poem
and few other stuffs which i'm kinda unsure of

from what I just knew (i might be wrong ok)
the escort from the guy's family will come
(except the guy itself - i seriously dunno why is that so)
with gifts (at least about 7 gifts *rolls*) for the bride
gifts for the bride's family engagement ring
and i tell u,
the escorts can be up to 30 people ok
it can be so packed in the girl's home
especially when houses in singapore is way too small

according to tradition,
both families have to communicate in poetry
but nowadays its always
'straight to the point'

and normally, the representative from the girl's side will give a speech
followed by prayer/dua'
for my family, its always my grandad who does this kinda thing

after that, they deal upon the bride price (mahar)
and the 'hantaran' (dowry)
and of course the duration of the engagement

the guy's mum or any representative will then put on the ring onto the girl's finger
the girl's family will then present their gifts to the guy's family

reception after that
then tadaaaa! you're engaged!

wow?
a hassle dun u think?
lol
but ppl still do it perhaps cos its a joyous occasion

------
here's something from my cuzzie's engagement

the girls of Karim's Family

the engagement ring

escorts from the guys side...can u see the gifts? I see Victoria Secret....LoL

Gifts from the girl to the guy (seeing the bouquet of ferrero chocs made me wanna get engaged as well! lol)

the food~ i see ayam masak merah, sambal goreng pengantin, dalca?, daging kicap. Apparently, the sambal goreng was cooked by my cuzzie who's just a year older than I am. Mum was complaining how capable she is and how uncapable i am cos i cant cook *rolls*

ouh well, she ought to be able to cook! she's engaged and i'm NOT

------------

I hope life isn't just a big joke...

because I don't get it.

Their lips were four red roses on a stalk.

2006-08-27T06:28:00.000-07:00

I cast my heart into my rhymes,
That you, in the dim coming times,
May know how my heart went with them
After the red-rose-bordered hem.

William Butler Yeats

------------

do you know what red roses means?

i hope it really means so~

missing child

2006-08-25T09:28:00.000-07:00

have anyone seen her before?
her name is Ashley Flores, 13 (yes, i know, she doesnt look like she's 13)
anyway, she's been missing for two weeks.
her mum is looking for her.
I actually got it from an email but too lazy to forward it so I post it instead so that I wont have any guilty feeling.

grr, fyi, i hate chain mails
please and pretty pretty please
DONT SEND ME ANY CHAIN MAIL/LETTER

anyway, if u found or happen to see her somewhere,
please contact the mum at
HelpfindAshleyFlores@yahoo.com

I'll be doing a good favour if its true afterall
if its not,
just take it that I'm wasting my time

-peace-

SPECIAL ANNOUNCEMENT

2006-08-25T03:15:00.000-07:00

i have to say this
i really have to

I AM AND GOING TO WATCH
"LOVE WRECKED"

i dont care what it takes
but i really have to

its about a girl who's really into this rockstar
and crash the holiday resort he's going to
and she actually found herself in a ship thats going to wreck
or sumthin like that
with the rockstar!
only the 2 of them!

OMG!
I HAVE TO WATCH THIS

although I sort of know whats gonna happen at the end
thanks to naz for telling
*rolls*
but I'm gonna watch it
I have to!
period.

p.s: can u like figure out why i want to watch this so much?
hahahahahhaha

pretend

2006-08-24T12:33:00.000-07:00

because I love to lay here lazy,
we could close the curtains

we could pretend
there's no world outside

The Cave

2006-08-24T11:16:00.000-07:00

the cave is right in front of my eyes
so near but yet so far

how deep is the cave?
how far can I go in?
what is in the cave?
where will I end up at?

there are two paths

one to a neverending dark journey
smooth sailing
but it leads to nowhere
that can never bring you back
except when miracle happens

another
a dark journey as well
with obstacles
but at the end of it
there's an exit
an exit towards something bliss

how bliss it is?
i dont care
cos whats important
its something blissfull

should I go into the cave?
too late
I'm already in
and so far,
I see something promising
vaguely though

I carry on
walking in and keeps walking
As I was walking,
it becomes even more vague
blurry at times
and seems like I'm not seeing it anymore
I was thinking...

perhaps I shouldnt have gone into the cave
but If I dont
I might not experience the bliss at all
cause thats the reason why I went in
the bliss
that I'm waiting for

but I'm stucked
right at the point
where in front of me there are 2 paths

which path should I take
what if I take the wrong path?
I can never see the light again
and be stucked in a deep dark sorrowful path
forever

well, the thing is I don't care
at least I tried
I took up the chances
I wanna be confident
I wanna think positive
cause I have faith
I believe in myself
and believe him

I'm trying
trying hard
I walk and walk
but I'm gonna get tired soon
energy is running out within me

still I see nothing
could I have taken the wrong path?
oh please dont
I aint gonna walk any deeper
I'm getting scared of it

slowly and slowly
i almost come to a halt
although I tried my best not to

its gonna stop soon
I dont know how much I can stand it longer

I keep reassuring myself
this is the correct path
I'm very sure
although deep down
I just wanna stop
and breakdown

holding my tears
I said to myself
this is nothing
carry on and find the bliss

damnit
I wanna burst out
I seriously want to
but I aint gonna give up

perhaps I could take a rest
I sit down
close my eyes
and rest my head on my knees
I could feel the tears running down on my knees

suddenly I feel like
I dont want to continue the journey
its like
I dont have the strength to carry on

at this point of time
what I wish for
my hope would come
with a flash light
offering his hand
hold my hand tight
and continue the journey with me

after that
nothing else is important
even though its the wrong path
my hope being there
its like fuel to an empty tank

because I believe
no matter what
this hope of mine will find a way for both of us

but for now,
I still cant continue with the journey
cos I'm still waiting for my hope to come
to fill up my tank and recharge me
and reassure me once again
with one hand grasping mind
and another showing the light

I'm still waiting...

or maybe

I'm already in the correct path
just that
I'm hesitating to move on

so
I'm still waiting
till hope comes
and gives me hope once again

---------------------------------------

are you thinking what I was talking about?
its just something I'm thinking and kinda feel about something
I am not brave at all
I dont have the guts to say it clearly
but I have to pen it down
(or at least type it out *rolls*)
if not I'll get crazy
so I put it in words only I can understand
you might understand it
i know somebody will understand it
and I appreciate it lots

but I'm telling you that
theres gonna be an ending to it
when the time comes
I'll tell you if I've taken the correct path
wait till hope comes

damn
another long post
you know what?
I hate long post
and I havent even talked about my favourite computer games
grrr

till next time then

i dont wanna do this anymore
i dont wanna be the reason why

daaaa

loads off my mind

2006-08-22T09:54:00.000-07:00

wee,
i have loads and loads and loads of stuffs to write about
and everything are still on my mind
too many things that I dunno where to begin

hmm, lemme see
how about I announce something very important first?

well, people!
I'm already having my holidays!!!
wee~
yipeee~
happy holidays!
its my term break and its 4 weeks
and i'll make sure i make use of it fruitfully
(I hope)

it has been a great semester
coping with FYP
waking up late and rushing to school
ponteng halfway and stuffs
but they are always good things to do
like having fun with the retards

one of those days, we actually went to JB
to shop
and spent about 6 hours in just one mall
6 hours I spent to get only 2 stuffs

thats in the fitting room, only retards will do that kinda stuff, lol

had lunch at Kenny Rogers
and I swear thats gonna be my first and last time eating there
i ordered a meal set(chicken, mash potato, coleslaw, cheese macaroni)
and in the end, I only ate the chicken
gosh, the rest all taste weird
the retards ate everything though
either I'm already full, or I'm just fussy
or cos they are special retards
hahas
*sigh*

on of those days too,
I and the retards
we went out to chill at the esplanade
and see local band playing
the music was good
they sound even better than the Singapore Idols
*rolls*

At the Esplanade, by the Singapore River, thanx Nic for taking this pic for us

before that, we went shopping
again
lol, got few stuffs
and really wanna get more
i hope money can come falling down from the sky
so that I can shop for more things
LOL

Last week of school
as usual, we took pictures
with our facilitator/tutor
(whatever u wanna call them)
some class madness going on
we had our dress theme each day
we had 'Stripes Day'
(I wasnt in stripes tho due to some reason like stripes can make u look fat)
*rolls* hahas
we had 'Cookies n Creme'
and we had 'Strawberry Kisses' which unfortunately I was too lazy to wake up
and it was Chriss' class, sheesh lah

ok, thats friso,a dutch fac who taught me IT Security and Management, I told him to do the peace sign and he actually did it with both hands! OMG! lol

its the 2nd last day of class and they are still so hardworking, yah rite,harworking in playing games I shud say! *rolls*

thats TekMing, he taught us Digital Security and Forensics, he's our fav btw so we gave him a cake. I'm gonna miss him

thats Alex who taught us Network Security, and if u notice, thats the 'Cookies n Creme' day!haha

sigh, I missed Chriss' class. He taught me Digital Audio and Video, lol, gonna miss his craps. hahah, apparently, they all said that I'm the only one who can entertain to his nonsense hahaha

semester is finally OVER
and guess what?
next sem, i only need to come 3 days per week for classes
hooray!
i can have another 2 free days to SLEEEEPPP!
hahahahaha

and you know this few months....
its BABY'S MONTH
cos the people around me seemed to have babies these few months
at first it was my cuzzie's lil daughter,Yazmin
if u look few posts back
you can see her new born pic and and I'm gonna show u how she looks now
she looks so round and so like my cuz, i mean the father
and I dont like it when my cuzzin told her to call me 'Aunty'
I feel so old~
grr

then it was my new bornt cuzzin, Danish Aryan
or something like that
he's younger than my niece
*rolls*
but luckily he just need to call me 'kakak'

lastly
it was my coach Abg SYah and my instructor Kak Alya's daughter
I swear she looks really beautiful
big eyes like the father
sharp nose like both the parents
fair skin
and she has my chin!
lol
oh, and her name is Nur Aqilah

looking at the babies suddenly makes me feel like wanna have my own babies, lol, ok,that was random, but really lah, I also want BABIES!! hahahaha

lemme see what else....
hmm...
ah, that day,went to visit my grandma and grandad
granma looking good and healthy
and grandad, as healthy as always
he's tall but he's shrinking I guess
cos thats what he told me
and that day, he was teaching me how to wear or tie a tie
lol
can u believe it?
hahaha
few times he did, I still cant get it
my cuz also taught me how
and I still didnt get it
grr, I finally gave up
perhaps I'll start learning again if my husband has to wear tie to work
hmm
gosh, thats tough
lol

my uncles and aunties were there
one of my uncle annouced that her daughter is gonna get engaged this saturday
wow!
its like really wow!
another joyous occasion
and my dad suddenly said out loud
"Dian is getting engaged as well!"

its clearly a JOKE
but they actually believed it
and all of them started to ask me with whom I'm getting engaged to
I just gave my dad a LOOK and tell him
"papa nak sangat ker dian tunang" as in he wants so much for me to get engaged
he just kept laughing
*rolls*
and I had to just smile the whole night saying
"no lah, takdelah, no such thing lah" and so on
grr

well, its not that I dont want to
I should at least know how to cook right?
unless my husband-to-be dont mind me cooking scrambled eggs everyday
cos thats the only thing I'm good at

ok what else?
i know its a feakin long post lah
just bear with it k
its reaching an end soon

oh
I actually wanted to update on
the stuffs i like the game I play
red roses *winks*
pernikahan SITI n Datok K's
(grr)
I'll save for the next post tho
cos I just had a gym session again just now
and my body has started to ache
Jaq was really torturing me lah
when I was doing the squats,
she kept saying "LOWER LOWER"
grr

and last but not least
i'm terribly UPSET
just as I planned my vacation break to KL
from the 28th till the 30th
I actually have my selection trials on the same days
damn

i better think of something
hmm
Dear Mr Brain
think of something please

-peace-

p.s:I hope my blog doesnt really sound like an 'Online Book'

lol

I HATE GYMMMM!!!

2006-08-11T09:06:00.000-07:00

nice pic? that was done specially by Anitha. Thanks a lot gerl, u rawwkkss! lol

i'm aching all over

thanks to the 2 hours spent in gym lah
now gym is going to be my next enemy

sigh,
but I'm left with no choice
I need the gym

hmm
maybe I should put Jessica Alba's Poster in my room
who knows, that could be a form of motivation for me

*grr*

I want to be a Digital Forensics Investigator
lol
now that was random
just now, I had no choice but to come to class
since my attendance is quite poor and afraid that it might affect my grading

I came to class with an aching body
luckily didnt really have to do much
we just had practical work in the lab
and actually got to experience being a digital forensics investigator
its cool lor
playing with screwdrivers,glove,torchligt, talon, cables,wires, and cameras
as usual
as mad and retarded as always
we didnt use the camera to take the crime scene and evidence only
hahahah
we actually took pictures of ourselves
it was crazy lah but fun also
since hols approaching soon
cant wait to go KL with the girls
lets eat and shop till we drop!!
wee~

Siti and Anitha,lol, they can certainly pose well. Adel,if u're reading this, do u happen to know any good looking indians there? lol, Anitha wants to get to know them and I'm just too shy to ask u personally. hehs

I'm getting better at posing,dont u think so? wakakaka, hahaha, kekeke, hehehe

3 retarded girls posing in the dry lab. what the hell were we up to huh?

hoping to have a decent pic of myself when another retard just showed up at the back. SYIKINNN!!!!

me and NICCC, am really looking forward to our KL trip! faster plan k

ma lil bro is so scared of flash so I took dis pic and am showing to u all how cute and funny he looks! lol

I know its a lil too late but

I still have to say this

HAPPY 41st BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!!

this year the celebration is like WOW
lotsa amazing fireworks at esplanade and marina bay
the fireworks are really pretty
but the people's behaviour are really ugly ah
all those jaywalking, illegal parking and stuffs
cant escape from it I guess
sighh

I'm not going to sing again
ok,that was another random thing
how dare my idiotic cuzzie
he actually laughed at me when I attempted to sing
grrr

hahahahaha

sorry for being too vain

i realised I put too many of my own pics

hahaha

hah!

who cares! its my blog anyway!

and dont be deceived by the pics

i dont look that good

hehehes

p.s: I miss you loadss xxxx

a sigh of relief ~

2006-07-31T06:50:00.000-07:00

in da mood to steal flowers! (oopss...i mean, pluck it)
--------
yea it makes me smile
yea it makes me smile

(gosh, it just cant get out of my head)

now looking at the stuffs below certainly makes me smile....

lol, thanks a lot to the sender, i really really really love it, muahHkkz xXx

weeee~
i can finally heave a sigh of relief
well, for now maybe

and you know, 'smile' again ;-D

but at least I can breathe now
sleep peacfully
eat well
and chill a bit

*smiles*

guess what?
I've finishd my FYP and have even submitted it!
weeee~

*smiles*

i've been losing my sleep
not eating well
feeling troubled all the time
thanks to my stupid assignment lah!
gosh, I HATE FYPPPPPP!!!

now that was taken when we were behaving so retardedly, ok, just blame FYP lah.

I was so stressed out
and thanks to some special people
who actually made me feel better during those stress days ;-)

and to my retards gang!
you rawkkkssss girls!
i can never imagine having to cope staring at the screen looking at the codes the whole day without having u girls behaving retardly infront of me! lol
lets keep up the retardness among us!
Hail Retard! Hail Retard!

hopefully shikin is not gonna be as retarded as the Goddess of Retards, Siti... lol

national silat championship is over too
Thank God~
i bagged home 1 gold and 1 silver
alhamdulillah
i've also got something off my chest
and it was nice

gosh,now what should i do?
lol
maybe i should sleep
i havent slept the whole day!
my otak dah bengong

btw, u peeps like the song?
thats by lily allen
currently, she's my fav
i like her
i like her face
i like her voice
i like her lyrics
i like her song
i like her vid clips
she's cute too.

so everyone, please enjoy 'smile' by lily allen

lastly, 'smiles' by me and mama and believe it or not, this pic is one of those with mama's best smiles! lol

cheers and adios~

let the chips fall where they may

2006-07-27T07:44:00.000-07:00

loves me, loves me not;

decided, undecided;

answered, unanswered;

will u tell me,
or
will u not?

i understand,
I'll just let the chips fall where they may

------

my mind has been in a whirl lately
i dunno

sometimes it goes blank
sometimes i dunno what I'm doing
sometimes i just stare into space
and most of the time
I dunno what I'm thinking

----

FYP has been driving us crazy
all of us

and just the thought of it makes me sick

like how the malay saying goes,

tidur tak lena
makan tak kenyang
mandi tak basah

had few nice times last week
-meeting my cuzzins for bbq
-meeting my exclassmate, rad, and had a nice dessert at Gelare
catchin up some ole stuffs

gosh, i miss my exclassmates
i miss irah
i miss ila
i miss kinhans
i miss rad
i miss kinO
i miss ima
i miss nad
i miss aisyah
i miss asiah
i miss hana
i miss khairu
i miss shaf
i miss fadly

i miss u all
but i'm dissaponited at u guys
u all didnt turn up for most of the gatherings i made!
bleargh

me,nuraini,naz and rad

with ma lil cuzzins

dessert with Rad and Naz

trying to learn how to cook indian food, lol, I'm putting effort u know....

with my lovely sibs at the beautiful esplanade

me and abg chit, my fav homies! watchin local band playing (can u see fullerton? its shining bright behind)

----

people, my FYP dateline is next monday
plese pray for me that i can finish on time
no glitches
and most importantly
PASS!

thank u

=)

ouh

and
i really miss u loads

lol

its in a mess

2006-07-21T10:13:00.000-07:00

they~

Who made up the rules
We follow them like fools
Believe them to be true
Don't care to think them through

I am sorry
So sorry
I am sorry
It is like this
I am sorry
So sorry
I am sorry
We do this

And it is ironic too
Cuz what we tend to do
Is act on what they say
And then it's that way

I am sorry
So sorry
I am sorry
It is like this
I am sorry
So sorry
I am sorry
We do this

And who are they
And where are they
And how can they possibly know all this

Do you see what I see
Why do we Live like this
Is it because it is true
That ignorance is bliss

And who are they
And where are they
And how do they know all this

I am sorry
So sorry
I am sorry
It is like

'jem

where'd you go?

2006-07-19T01:35:00.000-07:00

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.

- -

had an emotional day yesterday
the yellow ribbon people came to persisi
asking whether we could accept our
mentor cum trainer cum fellow teammate and most importantly our friend
although he's an exconvict and was a drug addict

that was silly
to accept someone based on his past
of course we accepted him
we love him so much

he came in to the hall
with his silat gear on
face red
and trying hard to smile

he was almost speechless
tears began streaming down
as he struggled to let his words out
he said his thanks
our tears fell too
everyone was in silence

the worst part was,
we were on camera
but everyone ignored
although some had their eyeliner smudged
and let their emotions ruled them
including me

suddenly,
a guy shouted,
"we love you!"
another shouted.
"you're wonderful!"

then all sorts of encouragement began to come out
everyone started to laugh
even the coaches
even the camera crews
all were touched

when its gonna be on air,
looking back at the tears are going to make us laugh
but I guess
looking back at the laughs are going to make us cry
again~

--

what happens when...

you feel cold and warm at the same time,
you read over the same line for the tenth time,
your heart and thoughts somehow appear to rhyme
a simple name conquers your whole mind?

could you be in trouble?

sigh
pirates of the carribbean anyone?

not true

2006-07-15T12:58:00.000-07:00

Old aunts used to come up to me at weddings,
poke me in the ribs and cackle,
telling me, "You're next."

They stopped after I started doing the same thing to them at funerals.

lol

weirdly funny

2006-07-14T09:33:00.000-07:00

lol

sometimes,
I thought the kind of family I have is one of a kind

its rather amusing but my family members have been bringing light to my life

just like how I bring light to their life

*ehem ehem*

lol

seriously, thats why my parents named me
Dian Hayati
which mean
'light of my life'

anyway,
its just funny lah
you might not think its funny
but its ok,
just help me laugh

that time when I just came back from london
at the airport
right after sending my parents off to Indonesia
I saw my lil 9 year old brother doing jumping jets

its ok doing jumping jets
but he's doin it at the airport with so many people around

so I just gave him a look
that tells him to stop and not let him make me lose face
then he just smiled and said
"Kak Dian, in one day hilman kena exercise 3 times"
translation: Kak dian, I have to exercise 3 times a day"

so I replied:
"kenaper? nak kasi kempis perut eh?"
translation: why? you wanna flatten your big belly?

then he said again:
"no lah, if I don't exercise 3 times a day, this thing (pointing to a white small machine clinged onto his belt) will start beeping"

(Hilman with his new exercise toy, for your info, he gave up and stop using it already)

lol
I just laugh
I was told that the school gave him that machine to encourage the students to exercise regularly
so kiasu~

my second sis is another weirdo
everytime I go online
I like using my lappie and sit in the living room cos its more spacious
but there's a pc in my room which my second sis uses it to watch video
she loves downloading those movies
the distance from my room to the living room is only few meters
and everytime she goes to the kitchen she will pass by me first
but I dunno why, when she wanna talk to me, she uses msn chat
(but of course we're on talking terms lah)
*rolls*

my third sis sleeps on the sofa at the living room instead of sleeping in her room that is equipped with a comfy bed, fan, and aircon.

my fourth bro, lied using my name because he didnt wanna play soccer with his friends
why me?
*pengsan*
lol

I need a break...

when when when?

competition is just over and I have performance coming up. Unfortunately its quite a big event so we have to train hard for it

then there's filming again, right a day after my performance

this never stops I guess, not to mention my final

urghhh

i need a break

should I just follow Ayu and her guy to the movies tomorrow? its been a long time since I last watch a movie, hmm, like few months ago? and Orlando Bloom looks so hot in Pirates of the Carribbean

i dun wanna play gooseberry

my coaches seem to still have jet lag

its already 2 days and they are still having it

do I still have jet lag?

apparently,I dun really know what it means

it says here in the encarta....
fatigue and disorientation from long flight: an internal physical disturbance experienced by air travelers on flights across different time zones. It affects the body’s internal clock, disrupting sleeping patterns, eating schedules, and body temperature.

my sleeping patterns have been weird

not to mention my eating schdules....not too sure about body temperature though

anyone has a thermometer?

-----------------------------------------------------------

"Belly tops, Flip flops

Lemonade, In the shade

Blue skies, Hot guys

Late nights, Water fights

Ice creams, Sweet dreams

Bathing suits, Shootin hoops

Party time, Schools out

Sleepin in, Sneakin out"

cant wait for that~

back

2006-07-14T02:45:00.000-07:00

Salaam,
Peace be upon u all...

how are you guys doin?
hehs

"whhhot? "
"whhhot? "
"whhhot? "
"oOookkkkeeyy...."
"yeeaahhh"
lol

*ok whatever, juz entertainin myself*
thanks to bang usop

anyway...

Alhamdulillah, thank God I've safely reached home
the journey,
the long hours flight,
the mission,
the lesson,
the experience,
the encounter
the competition
everything was fruitful

and now I'm going to warn u
this post is going to be freakin long
with freakin lotsa pictures
anyway,
I'm lovin it
appreciate me and read bitz of it
cos its one of the most wonderful thing ever happened to me

the trip to London was super nice
was there for 2nd UK Open C'ship 2006
I love...
the place,
the UK team,
the weather,
the starbucks coffee
and many many other things

here goes my journal...

6th July 2006, thursday, 8am S'pore time:
the whole team were set to go, about 35 of us
taking Malaysia Airlines
(I actually stole the pillow and blanket, sshhh)
transit at KL
and 12 hours long flight to Heathrow Airport

my beloved family sent me off at the airport
including my aunts,uncle and cuzzies
*lovely*

the journey was tiring
I cant get to sleep at all in the plane, very uncomfortable
M'sia team was with us in the plane
Saiful(m'sia pesilat) whom I got to know from previous comp
was sitting right in front of me
all the more I cant get to sleep
*hehs*

6th July 2006,thursday, abt 4pm London time:
reached Heathrow Airport
I felt the breeze, totally different from S'pore
nice, cooling with the sun shining
sweet summer I thought...

Bang Irfan, Pak Adinal and Thom picked us up
such nice peeps
was rather amused with the bus
there's no aircon, so initially it was stuffy
as soon as it moves, we started to feel the refreshing breeze again
pleasant feeling I thought...

we headed off to Brunel Uni which is at Uxbridge
was told that its at the far end away from the city

anyway, the place is still amazing
the rooms
the location
the hall
and the cooling breeze again
mashaAllah
wonderful I thought.... the dorm

Londonn'd 7-11

saw the indos athletes
those were damn good ones
most of them are indo's best players
its gonna be a very tough competition for us
phew~

I think I got jet laag
as soon as i settled down in my room
i feel so shack
I had to sleep when I saw the bed calling me
although it was only about 6pm london time
I was flat asleep

was then woken up by my hunger
wasnt sure of the exact time
all I know was that its not that dark
its dusk to be exact
heaaded straight to the kitchen and have my dinner

oops, I havent done my Maghrib and Isya'
I stopped eating and sms sohaib to ask him the exact time
surprisingly, he replied "3:38am"
you gotta be kidding man
its already subh
quickly and panickly I called dad for missing my prayers
I didnt know what to do
he just told me to perform the prayers
and so I did
I hope Allah forgives me~

continued with my dinner by my window
cant get back to sleep later on
its hard adjusting my sleeping time
so decided to walk around
I walked out of the room in my pink pyjamas
my team jacket on
and my nerdy glasses

*rolls*

its cold out there
very cold
but there was no one
most of the people were sound asleep
it was semi deserted
I continue to walk and got attracted by the leaves
subhanallah, such beautiful leaves
looks like maple and even like a clover
I picked one and because of the chill outside
I decided to headed back to my room

was that Sohaib whom I just saw in the kitchen?
he looked like Sohaib and was smiling at me
nevermind

7th July, friday, 8am London time:
its breakfast soon
after the long sleep i feel refresh

had cereal then off we went to the hall

nice hall, nice ventilation
weighin took place
we helped out a little
its the opening of the C'ship

training was in the afternoon
was then informed that we're playing tonight
gosh that was fast
and after being ultimately ready
our category was postponed to tomorrow
thanks to those sarawaks bimbs lah

8th July 2006, Saturday, 10am london time:
after breakfast, straight to the hall
my category was after lunch
some won some lost
its part and parcel of a competition
as for us, we got bronze
was a lil dissapointed
but then again, we did and performed our best
hate my makeup for the competition though
too thick, too blue
and yeah, was a pain in the arse putting it on
but we dun have a choice,do we?

9th July 2006, Sunday, 10am london time:
the finals,
prize presentation day,
and the closing.
ouh,
Nice
Splendid performance
a very warm closing
and a time to take lotsa pictures

after the closing
another event going on
another finals
the fifa world cup Italy vs France

we watched it at the canteen
that was packed with Italian supporters
"I-TALIA, I-TALIA" they shouted
but I was all along, quietly rooting for France to win
go Zizzou! Go!!
apparently something happened and France lost by penalty
ouww

those Italians went crazy after their victory
with some of them started to strip
what the hell were they tryna do?

so ignoring them while cheering together with them
we headed back to our dorm
the guys all started to play football
still football fever goin on I guess

had to take care of rifdi's stuffs
he didnt allow me to go back to my room
untill he finish playin
did he even know how cold it was?
Zainab even told us that it cud be less than 10degrees
oh, for goodness sake

while waiting,
chatted with sohaib for awhile
he reminded me of my morrocan teacher
yes sohaib, the way u talk and all
you sounded just like my teacher
btw, hope u're having fun in Egypt

then with some others
Pak Arif
Adel
Shah
Zainab
and some others
mostly the uk team peeps
they were a sweet bunch of people
love their company

Adel was being most sweet and gentleman though
letting me wore his jacket and all
now i'm starting to miss u~
Zainab said Adel's a charmer
and I guess thats what a charmer always does
hehs

10th July, Monday, 10 am:
competition finally over
my skin has started to get dry and peeling a lil
but it was time for us to have a lil fun
just that the next time we come
lip balm and mosturizer is a must to bring

walked all the way to the station
it was freakin far
took the tube
went to hyde park
(freakin big lar)
the palace
did we go to trafalgar square?
we did go to a spot with lotsa pigeons
I know we went to Tocadero
then there was the Planet Hollywood Shop,
Hard Rock..

and finally we took the tube and walked a long way again
to hannah's nice cosy house
had a very nice dinner
although it was tiring, its still fun though
thanks to the UK guys for bringin us around
thanks to Adel for the jacket as well as the company
=)

11th July, Tuesday, 1 pm london time:
time for us to pack and ready to go back home
but we still have some time
so they took us to Windsor Castle
its a very beautiful place
the view was breathtaking
but the time given to us was limited
too big the place yet too little time
I didn't get to walk around that much
thanks to the choc drink that spilled in my bag
my only regret was not being able to have the company i wanted
and also not able to ride the ferris wheel
which I desperately wanted to ride on since last time
next time maybe since someone has promised me
i'm holding on to that ok ;)

it was really sad leaving london and everything there
really really sad

12th July, Wednesday, 4:45pm s'pore time:
finally reached home
back in singapore
able to meet my parents for a lil while only
cos at about 6pm, they are flying off to Jakarta for a conference
good lah
I just reached home and they are leaving me
I miss u mama
I miss u papa
come back soon

cant sleep at night cos used to the london sleeping time already
but yet I still feel tired, just that I cant get back to sleep
dunno why

13th July, Thursday, 7 am in the morning:
very very tired
had to go for class cos I cant afford to miss it again
yet I still dozed off in class
and believe it or not,
I even dozed off during training
lol
i need a good sleep
yet now,
on the 14th July, Friday, 2:40am in the morning,
I'm doing this freaking long blog.
lol

Oh Allah, Bless me~

was it just a wishful thinking on my part?

2006-07-04T09:05:00.000-07:00

tiring day today,
went for 2 classes in the morning
then headed off to Malay Heritage Center

had a filming there
(gosh, we were like superstars lor)
but damn tiring
from 1pm till almost 8pm
can you believe that?
we actually worked with the parkour team from London
they are called 'Tracers' or something like that ar
we didnt actually get to experience impressive stunts by them
you know, like the one in yamakasi
but they were good lah
and cute too,
hehs
(looking forward to our chillin tomorrow evening)
sshhhhsss

unfortunately, its not gonna be aired here in singapore
one of the crew said its gonna be aired in the US (wow, macam betul jer)
maybe...
but its good to know that silat is going to be exposed there
"Hidup Silat!"

with the "Tracers", gosh their arms are super-toned and super strong sey

me and one of the "Tracers", Yuesoff aka Asid, a british-turk (btw, he looks better in real life)

the Tracers and Pesilats combining force ....

ok peeps

I'm finally going to be away
not on a vacation
but on a mission

a mission possible

(ok whatever)

If you happen to read this entry
(and even like reading my blog)
you can always take your time reading it
cos, i'm not updating it
any sooner than next week

i'm off to london this thursday
we're supposed to be departing on wednesday
but due to unforseen circumstances
its been changed
damnit

i'll be off early in the morning
and frankly, I dunno how I'm going to survive the long hours flight
Allah hafidz~

here are some messages i'm leaving...

to my beloved family...
mama- I'm gonna miss your love, hugs and kisses
same goes to papa- I'm gonna miss your snoring and nagging
intan - sorry I have to go on your birthday, I'll try to get u something. Strive on and keep dieting hor.
Izy - make the bed everyday and dun wear my clothes!
hanif - sorry I also have to miss your birthday but will try to get u something as well
hilman - I'm gonna miss your cuddles and massage especially, love u baby!

to my aunts, uncles, nenek, datuk, cuzzies....
thanks for the support, appreciate it lots

to my dear friends who wish to send me off at the airport
I appreciate it and that was sweet of you people
but I also understand that you have classes
and its fine with me cos its the thought that counts
so dun feel bad if u all cant send me off
but if u all still sending me off,
its not so bad to pon once in awhile
and thanks!
ouh, and yes,
I'm gonna miss you all so much too!
gonna miss our crapping session in between breaks at the cafe

to naz,
I LOVVVVEEEEE the shoooeeee!
thank you thank you thank you
thanks for making me such a beautiful shoe

i will cut the strap soon
I'm gonna let the shoe touch the english soil
and let everyone see how beautiful it is
hahaha

to my baby fats,
will you go away after i come back
I've had enough of you fatty idiots
sigh-

to my facilitators, or lecturers or teachers or whatever u wanna be called,
sorry to miss your lessons
please give me a good grade when i come back please....

to my comrades,
lets strive on and
perform the very best we can!
perhaps we can have a lil fun at the end
-ifyouknowwhatimean-
lol

last but not least,
all you dearies, family and friends,
a favour from me wud be
your prayers for my safety, well being and achievements.

gonna miss u all loads
dun forget to miss me too
although i will only be away for a week
hehehes

so long everyone!
daaa

should i? or should i not?

2006-06-30T16:24:00.000-07:00

perhaps I shouldnt

arghhhhhh!!!

stupid me
stupid
stupid
stupid

boohooohoooo = (
wek wek wek

now its too late
it has happened and there's no way I can change it back
why was I so gatal?

I shouldnt have cut my fringe on my own
didnt know what goes into me
that I change my long layered fringe to a stupid ugly beetle

now my siblings keep on laughing at my 'beetle'
but hey!
its not as if my whole fringe have been changed to beetle
its only a part of it so its not so obvious

furthermore i thought its new style
and it looks fresh to me
ah!
whateverlah

how do I make it nicer?
cant possibly go to a salon to improve on my partly-beetle-fringe
or should I trim my hair too?
cause its failing
but i'm tryna keep it long

how?
how?
how?

sigh

afterall
i dun think it even matters
cause nobody's gonna see it anyway

why dun u see a pic of me with Achik SPIN?
huhuhu

i just remembered that I took a pic with him when we met at Hotel Selesa
he had a performance there with nana
his singing is nice
his looks are ok
his wife is so petite but quite pretty
very indian-arab looking

duh,
who cares...
javanese girls still the prettiest of all
kekekeke

hah?
what?
me javanese?

hahaha
no lar...
i'm mixed =p

well,iamjavanese
lol

me and achik

my cute lil second cuzzie whose name i've forgotten

see how big his eyes are. loike it~ hehs

my niece Yazmin Humaira who was bornt few weeks ago, I guess the name really suits her. Can you see how red her face is?

ouh and yes, I'm already an aunt - a YOUNG aunt ok

stressfully devastated shining moon

2006-06-29T10:23:00.000-07:00

what day is today?
today is a stress day!

no doubt it is
and the sad thing is not knowing what you are stressed about
------------------------------------
as I walked home just now
I was feeling stressfully devastated
without knowing the cause
tears started to flow

How do I end this?
when the beginning is unclear
How do I move on?
when I'm already stucked

Problems don't surround me
I don't need solutions
still what I've been searching for
have never been found

Let my dreams fly far
Let the sky seizes me
Not even when I descend
Not even when I'm conceited

And after all that have been created
Can't feel the sensation
And the forsaken love
Was left with disappointment

I'm tired from searching
The meaning of sacrifice
To accompany as I stride
Meaningless I realize

Just like the shining moon
That narrates a story
Of faithful love
With a genuine glimpse
Of an unrivaled light

kelakar

2006-06-28T02:22:00.000-07:00

ok,
i'm not trying to be kiasu or lame or even vain here
for posting more than a post in a day
but i guess i have to post this up before i forget about it

but just cant help it sey

when i looked and read at my first few posts
somewhere around june 2004
about 2 years ago
I was laughing like hell lah!

ok,
don't go and be gatal as to click on my past archives
i am not going to forgive you for that

anyway
cant believe it
i was being lame lah
the way i wrote and the story i told
like some desperate blogger lor

blardy hell me
wasnt I supposed to be an intellectual blogger?
not some lame nonsensical unlogical blogger...
grr

ok,
let me just remind u again
don't go and read it eh
if u wanna know so much then I tell you a bit a bout it lar

I was just telling;
how boring my day was
i cant get to sleep
getting exposed
portugal vs holland......

OH SHIT!!!
did holland lost to portugal 2 years ago?
was that even the world cup?
i tot its supposed to be 4 years ago
not 2 years ago

dammit lar
didnt know holland was lousy
now my dutch fac confirm will think that i'm gonna suck up to him
by mentioning in my essay that holland is going to win the world cup
and apparently thats what I'm trying to do
just bribing him to give me an A grade for my work
although I seriously think holland cannot make it lor

sigh

If u ask me which country gonna win the world cup then I wud say...
south korea or japan
cos I support asians
oh and maybe
saudi arabia as well
but really lar
cant really comment much about it
cos I almost know nuts about football/soccer

unless u ask me who's the hottest football player lar
I can give u a list for that
christiano ronaldo being the first
followed by bechkam
then ballack
then owen
ok, those white
well maybe
nakata
ahn jun something
ronaldo
RONALDO?
whatever lar
and the list never stops ok

its always like that
to be a football player, u need to have a package
just like any celebrity
u need to have the looks, bods and skills
confirm can smitten girls like me
ok whatever

i think the singapore waterpolo team are much hotter lah
most of them are super damn gorgeous
I knew they were great
but I didn't really know that they are so good looking and hunky
why never tell me idiot?

I only found out when I went for the sports award dinner lar
There's this waterpolo guy lar
i think he's eurasian
mallal garret charles
thats his name I guess
not too sure
but what I'm sure of is that he's so cute
almost a perfect face with perfect features
well maybe he sucks
cos nobody's perfect

Singapore water polo team

whatever lah
edison still looks the best~

photogenic

2006-06-28T00:05:00.000-07:00

Is photogenic a good thing?

this is the definition for photogenic:
looking attractive in photographs: tending to look good in photographs
(from encarta)

so those who are photogenic only look good in pics but not in real life

Alamak
apparently most people say I'm photogenic
which I really hate it
cos its not a good thing to me lah

That time, syikin told me something while looking at my pics...
syikin: Dian, you look good in pics eh
me: dot-dot-dot and (smiles dissapointedly)

wahlao
then that means I don't look good in real life lar!
urgh!!
-although syikin didnt think so-

then siti also said...
Siti: Dian, how come u look different in pics?
Dian: (dissapointed again) I know, i look prettier right?
--------

ahhh!!!

I'm tryna stop being so vain
and gonna put ugly and geeky pics of mine

at least when people see it their reactions would be:
"wah! this girl so ugly"
then when they really meet me personally,
they will say...
"not bad ar! quite pretty actually"

hahahahaha
nice~

I'm gonna do just that!
please enjoy my BeeeeYouuuutiFFuuul pics...

beautiful is you

2006-06-24T02:35:00.000-07:00

yeah, just changed a new layout
took me weeks to do it
not because doing it is tough
but
its just that, I'm a lil bit too occupied with stuffs

so...
like my new layout?
hahaha
i like it

i like the heels
i like the shoe
i like most of the stuffs there
except the colours.

its lacking of pink
grrr

TIRED!
TIRED!
TIRED!

I wanna sleep liao

p.s: i know the pictures look a lil bit weird in the posts
i'm just too lazy to change it

triplesix

2006-06-05T10:13:00.000-07:00

i like today's date

06-06-06

perhaps I should blog again at
06:06:06 am

and thats like about 6 more hours to go

and the date and time stated wud be
06-06-06
06:06:06 am

nice~
hehs

oh and
sheesh
i cant find that bloody website everyone's been asking me

i merely put up a quote on my msn personal nick saying:
“Checkout & reject 12 ppl, then pick the next best that comes along, and you’re likely to have a very good match on your hands"

and its like dunno how many people already asking me if its true or not and what it actually means

lemme tell you,
the quote simply means that
- your truly soulmate is the 13th person you're going out with

i cant really tell you if its true or not because I havent personally experience it (really)
i just took it from a website i randomly clicked onto
its a research conducted by a professor who wrote the book 'Mathematics and Sex'
so is it really true?

well, if you choose to believe in it~

if you are going to ask me how many I've rejected already
then dun bother to ask because I have lost counted already
not because I have rejected too many
its just that I cant be bothered

well maybe...

anyway,
i suggest the best solution if you lost count wud be

to restart

and yes,
i mean it

yada yada yada

2006-05-24T20:16:00.000-07:00

IT Security and Management
wahlao` this module getting boring and taxing
i shouldnt put in too much effort
and this dutch facilitator of mine getting weirder
grrr

now i'm bored
with lotsa things to do yet so lazy

so....
i'm gonna write little things
and put lotsa pictures
hahahaha
i love pictures
cause it saves me from writing a thousand words.

Anyway,
some delightful thing that has been going on

1) Dragon Boating with Cuzzins at Kallang River

(maybe the pics shud be a lil bit bigger)

2) Lunch out with Maternal Side Family

yeah, all 4 tables.... we are related....

3) Mama's Day out

Sweet Sour Fish with ladies finger and yeah,with me smiling at it by the side =)

hot spicy chicken wings....plockplockplock

kekekek

and the yummiest of all from Tam Buah Mas Restaurant would definitely be the..........

jeng jeng jeng

hehehehe

TAHU TELOOOOOR!!!

ORITEY....

youmay stop drooling

freaky sisters

and dats for eating TOO MUCH

HAHAHAHA

4) Sending off kak Jannah to Bahrain @ the airport

mind you.... its 3 am you know...

5) my favourite homies

well, we've been hanging out together a lot recently and apparently, As-Shalihin seems to be our favourite hang out place

aja! aja!

my lepak gang...

wee...

being the only girl, abg zahid said i'm like the cast in 'Anak Metropolitan'

ifyouknowwhatimean~

apparently, i still dunno what he meant~

6) My lovely cute students...

love em'

ok,he's my favourite

7) Team Singapore Anniversary Party 2006

ENJOYING EH

orite orite,thats all for now

i better do some work if not my team's gonna screw me

ahhahah

daaaaaa

Just Close Your Eyes And Imagine

2006-05-09T09:52:00.000-07:00

Just close your eyes and imagine,
You have just one more day to live;
One more day to show Allah,
What "Jannah" he should give?
To say goodbye to your family,
And all your closest friends;
To ask for forgiveness,
And try to make amends;

Just close your eyes and imagine,
Did you miss a prayer or two?
Did you please Allah, and do the things,He asks every person to do?

Just close your eyes and imagine,
Tomorrow you will be gone;
No more second chances,
To smell the mist of dawn;

Just close your eyes and imagine,
The angels are going to come,
To take your soul and ask,
In your life "what have you done"?

Just close your eyes and imagine,
The words you want to say;
Will not come out you may realize,
For all your deeds you'll pay;
You want to speak out, to cry out,In Allah I believe;
But, silence beckons you,
No more can u deceive;

Just close your eyes and imagine,
Finally, Your silence breaks away;
You tell the angels you believe in Allah,And for him, you did pray;
You say as tears are pouring down your face
Please, Allah, forgive me,
For the sins that I committed,
Have mercy is my plea!

Just close your eyes and imagine,
That the smell of musk surrounds you,
From your head down to your feet;
You realize Allah forgave you,
Hell fire you did defeat;

But we all know as Muslims,
When it's time for you to die;
You'll not be given a second chance,
To say a last goodbye;
So live each day as If it's your last,
And never forget to pray;
So when the angels come to ask,
You'll know the words to say.

Come to think of it, how long is a person's life in this world? How far is death? When a person is born, Azaan is said in his ears. He then lives a life of, say 70 years. Then when he dies, shortly afterwards is the Namaaz-e Janaaza prayed. So how long is his life? 70 years? Wrong! His whole life is like the brief period of time between Azaan and Jamaat.

Think Positive

2006-05-05T22:13:00.000-07:00

This is nice
- finding positive out of every negative - which we don't always manage to do.
I am thankful...
1. For the husband who snores all night, because he is at home asleep with me and not with someone else.

2. For my teenage daughter who is complaining about doing dishes, because that means she is at home & not on the streets.

3. For the taxes that I pay because it means that I am employed.

4. For the mess to clean after a party because it means that I have been surrounded by friends.

5. For the clothes that fit a little too snug because it means I have enough to eat.

6. For my shadow that watches me work because it means I am out in the sunshine.

7. For a floor that needs mopping, and windows that need cleaning because it means I have a home.

8. For all the complaining I hear about the government because it means that we have freedom of speech.

9. For the parking spot I find at the far end of the parking lot because it means I am capable of walking and that I have been blessed with transportation.

10. For the noise I have to bear from my neighbours because it means that I can hear.

11. For the pile of laundry and ironing because it means I have clothes to wear.

12. For weariness and aching muscles at the end of the day because it means I have been capable of working hard.

13. For the alarm that goes off in the early morning hours because it means that I am still alive.

lol

wonderful

2006-04-12T08:07:00.000-07:00

these days,
its been quite a hectic month for me
nice~

i've uploaded all the pictures
Festival Silat Temasek 2006
and also my recent trip for the
Teluk Danga International Games

nice trip
very fruitful
enjoyable
met really nice people
its just so wonderfulll

i was actually quite surprised to see
some of my school mates there to compete too
and to see them won something
that was really nice
and am really proud of them

my team won bronze
perhaps we could even get better than that
perhaps it might not just be our rizqi

whatever it is
i thank Allah for everything that he has given me

since coach was happy with our performance
i guess,
we can never ask for more.

whew.
for your viewing pleasures.

humid rain

2006-03-25T09:25:00.000-08:00

back from selangor few days ago for some friendly
back to training just the day after
back to malaysia again for another competition
and that will be next week

right,
my hols have been the same
always away for some overseas thingy
not that i'm complaining
but i guess,
i also wanna have more fun than usual

the weather nowadays havent been my favourite
its humid and rain once a while
anyway, rain or shine
its still humid
typical singapore weather
just that,
its not that good nowadays

sigh sigh sigh

i always thought that i'm still young
with a young age to even be thinking of marriage
perhaps i'm wrong
my parents got married at 25
i'm going to be 20 this october
in 5 years time
i can never imagined myself getting married to someone
although i thought of doing so

hehs
funny i thought
i dun even have to think in 5 years time

a childhood friend/schoolmate of mine
where we went to school together for about 10 years
we shared our food during recess time
we squabbled on petty little things
and believe it or not
i still remember it till now
that she gave me 50 cent because i wanna buy some tidbits
hehehe

and now,
she's happily married with a a very cute lil daughter

another classmate of mine just got engaged today
and some other ole classmates also getting engaged soon

oh my
are they still young?
or
am i just not matured enough?

gosh
this is so freaky

its getting even harder to react when people ask me
"when is your turn?"

if last time i could simply say
"i'm still young with better things to do and think of"

yet now
"replying with just a smile is even tough"

march your way! wee~

2006-03-10T09:53:00.000-08:00

March is a nice month for me,

some joyous occasions have been happening around me
yet there're more to come
wee~
this is fun

my cuz wedding
long vacation
beach outing
festival
wee~~~

i love it man
to describe every occasions wud need
more than a thousand words
what more few occasions?
that will be thousands and thousands of words
it will be very sian then

nevertheless,
a picture says a thousand words
i'll try to put really some nice pics
yipeee~
wee~~

the reception - its at a multi purpose hall near the groom's(cuzzie) residence at woodlands

during the A'kad Nikah at the bride's residence. CuZ really had that 'lucky newly wed' looks

hehe

me and cuz Sakinah wearing our traditional clothing at the reception. - our job, the basket girl giving gifts to guests! lol. Gosh, now i only notice that i'm really all blue!

me and my dearest nenek. lurve ya

me and my diamonte sis

alright, next up wud be my beach outing

certainly had fun after so long

reaching for the SKY!!!!!!! guess which is me? i'll give ya a hint...i'm wearing my fav colour top!

alright,

thats it for now!

carpe diem~